Hanni Imagines (gxg)

coming out to her as trans {FTM} (requested)

As you sat beside Hanni on the sofa in your living room, you anxiously bounced your knee and played with your fingers as you tried to just come out and say what was on your mind.

She couldn't help but worry because you asked her if you could talk when you anxiously pulled away from the makeout you were in the middle of.

She can tell that whatever is on your mind that you want to tell her is making you very nervous and it's breaking her heart to see you this way.

"Baby," She whispered before she gently grabbed your hand. "Whatever it is that you want to talk to me about, you can tell me. I'm not here to judge you."

The thing is that you've heard that before.

You've heard it a couple of times already from other people you liked a lot but once they heard you say what you have to say, things noticeably change between you.

Hanni is different from the other people you've been into.

She's so kindhearted and so sweet and you're crazy about her.

But there's something you haven't told her just yet that you just want to get off your chest now and even though she doesn't seem like the type of person that would judge anyone for who they are, you can't help but worry from past experiences.

"Y/N?" She whispered and softly brushed her thumb across your palm. "Talk to me."

"There's something I haven't told you." You said with a sigh. "I'm very nervous to tell you but I just need to get it off my chest."

She nodded wordlessly and continued to sit there, patiently waiting and listening.

"Hanni, I'm trans." You said. "FTM, so female to male. I've been wanting to tell you since we met but I was afraid to."

"Why?" She wondered.

"Because I've been here before with previous people I was into. But it didn't go as I hoped with them. They told me the same thing you did at the start. That they weren't going to judge me and I could tell them anything. But as soon as I told them more about who I am, they just had a change of heart. They just decided that it wasn't for them."

She squeezed your hand and you looked into her eyes.

"I'm so sorry you had to go through that. You don't deserve that at all."

"Thank you." You quietly spoke.

"But if there is an upside to those crazy people, it's that every one of them that chose to walk away brought you and me together. And I can promise you right now that you being trans doesn't make me look at you any differently and I'm not going to judge you for it."

Your heart swelled as you watched a smile tug at her lips.

That's all you have ever wanted to hear from soneone you cared so much about; that they cared for you the same way and that they cared about you for who you are.

Hanni wasn't bothered at all about the fact that you were trans.

You saw in her eyes that she genuinely cares about you and her touch was just as gentle and loving as it'd always been.

Part of you was convinced that she had to be heaven sent because you felt as though she was your every dream come true.

"You can tell me more about it if you want. I would love to learn more."

"You would?" You asked in surprise and watched her nod before she reached out to stroke your cheek.

"Yeah. This is part of who you are and I want to learn about that. It's important to you. You can tell me anything, Y/N, I mean that wholeheartedly."

You breathed out a sigh of relief.

"Thank you, Hanni. That means so much to me. You don't even know how nervous I was. I'm not saying you're anything like the people I've been with before but I was so nervous to tell you because I didn't want to lose you."

"You won't ever lose me. I like you a lot, Y/N. And I like you for who you are. I don't mind at all that you're trans, that doesn't bother me at all. I want to learn more, if you want to share. But trust me, I won't ever judge you."

You smiled at her and watched her brown eyes sparkle.

"I don't know if it's too soon to say this but..." She paused, taking a deep breath. "I love you and I will always love you, no matter what. So please don't ever worry about telling me anything, especially if it's about who you are. You're amazing just as you are and don't ever let anyone tell you differently."

You threw your arms around her and hugged her tightly, makiing her chuckle softly before she hugged you back.

"I love you too." You whispered as you tried to hold back your tears, feeling as if your heart might explode. "Thank you."

"Anytime." She said as she rubbed your back.

You were certain that you'd finally found your person, at last.

Hanni loves and accepts you for who you are and that means everything and more to you.