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☁️🎀🌷🦋🌷🎀☁️
- 𝔽𝕆ℝ𝕋𝕐-ℕ𝕀ℕ𝔼 -
𝕚'𝕞 𝕠𝕜𝕒𝕪
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• wooyoung •
it was four am and san and i were hauled up in the kitchen, both of us enveloped with silence. i was sat atop of the counter, swirling a half-filled cup of water that i no intention of finishing- waiting for my boyfriend to say something.
he had pulled me from my spot on the couch with joongie, claiming he wanted to talk to me about something important, which scared the shit out of me. it's been what- two weeks since we started dating officially, what could i have done wrong in such little time?
was it my little space?
"baby, first; it's nothing about you okay?" sans voice sounded so loud in the silence, even if he was just whispering. i looked away from the cup, letting my legs swing back and forth, i watched as san walked up to me, taking the cup from my hands and placing it on the counter before intertwining our fingers,
"okay?"
"mhm." i nodded, feeling my nerves go down a bit, but i was still worried nonetheless. san looked completely serious, and a completely serious san was intimidating.
"i wanted to talk to you about some stuff with my past... you asked about it last week and i told you i'd tell you soon. well, now is soon so..." he cleared his throat, biting at his lip before letting out a breath. he seemed really nervous.
"sannie, it's okay if you're not ready- we have forever," i smiled, running my thumb over his hand to which he smiled back.
"yeah, i know. thank you baby. but i really wanna talk about it now. i can't keep avoiding what happened like it didn't y'know? cus it hurt me, and it fucking terrifies me and i don't wanna have you not knowing if you can say or do things around me- i don't want that.
"so sorry if this is long, i'll try to keep it short and if you have questions just ask okay? i want everything out in the open." i nodded to show i was listening, and i let him continue.
"okay so," he let out a shaky breath, and then let go of my hands, jumping up on the counter next to me and shifting so he could wrap his arounds around my waist, laying his head on my shoulder.
"uhm, when i was younger- after my mom died, my dad was never the same. i mean he wasn't awful, but he was really irritable, yelled a lot y'know. which sucked but it wasn't unbearable- i just avoided him lots. he stopped caring for my little brother, minsun, and i- just leaving us wads of cash every once in a while and leaving to drink again. so when i got to middle school i think, i started realizing that i liked guys too, and it was kinda scary- cus i would think back to the way my dad spoke to same gender couples we passed on the street, or how he changed the channel when it spoke of lgbtq+. " he paused a little, and then continued.
