hard and soft- b.e

Two

The plane lands and once i get out, I feel like i can breathe again. The anxiety has calmed down now that im out of the plane... but i still have to meet Billie.

My phone plings and i look at it. Its another message from Billie asking if i have arrived at the airport. I answer yes and she tells me where to go. I follow her instructions until i see a tall bulky man dressed in black with a sign (actually its a picture of Billie from her music video to All the good girls go to hell with the black wings and fire around her) that says my name on it. Not my full real name but what i call myself on insta. Clariecore.
I hate that name, i have to change it soon.

I walk up to the man and say "hi im Claire" and he smiles down at me. He looked a little scary from afar but now that hes smiling, he seems like a big teddy bear. He speaks and his voice is deep but somehow calming.

"Ill take you to the car out there and drop you off at the hotel Billie got a room for you in. Can i take some of your bags?" He asks. I move out of the way so he can take some. I thought he would only take some of them but he takes them all, not caring how heavy they are.

I follow him with visible shock on my face. Who tf is this dude? Obviously working for Billie but... I didn't know people like him still existed. I thought teddy bear buff men were extinct.

He loads everything into the car and I sit in the backseat. I only have my little bag with me with a little water, some snacks, my headphones and some makeup. My phone is in my pocket and I decide to put on some music while we drive.

"How long until we arrive?" I ask the teddy bear man.

"About 20 minutes." He says, still with such a warm deep voice that I don't want to leave this car as long as hes in here.

Of course I put on Billie Eilish's new album to listen to until we arrive at the hotel.

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The hotel is a lot more fancy than i thought it would be. Why did Billie spend so much money on me?
I decide to do a room tour and post it on my dancing profile on insta after changing the name to justclaire because I wasnt feeling creative but i needed to get rid of my stupid username.

Everythibg looks like im living a Lana del ray song. The walls are a beautiful pink color with flower decor. Every vase and picture frame is neatly decorated with cold lines and swirls and beautiful flower patterns. The curtains are light lavender but thick enough to shut out the light from the big glass door.
I slide the door open and walk out onto the small space with golden rails in front of me. I've always been scared of heights so I grab the rails for dear life, but i stay. I just have to see this.

The bed is giant with beautiful decorations and the softest and prettiest bed sheets. The pillows and sheet is made of silk. The duvet cover is bright pink like the walls and with flowers that make it look like an otherworldly landscape. 

I walk backwards... get as much power in my jump as possible... and i run towards the bed, jumping head first onto it and i almost get kicked back up again. The bed feels so deep that i could melt into it and i never wanna leave this room ever again.

"This... is... AMAZING!!!" I shout to myself before letting out some happy squeals and tucking myself into the bed. I dont think ive ever been this happy... until someone knocks on the door.

I go to see who it is cus i didnt hear someone say anything. I open the door... and there she is. Billie Eilish.
I snap for breath. I can't breathe. It feels wrong breathing her air. She looks so beautiful. So much more perfect than i thought she would. And she has the biggest smile on her face and her foot is moving excitedly on the floor like she cant wait to come inside.

Shes a few inches taller than me, her hair is pulled back into a bun and shes smiling so much that i can see the tooth gems.
When i look into her eyes, its almost like she's meeting someone famous as well. I can almost see the childish shine rush over my body, greedy for touch or an autograph.

"Hii!!" She squeals and attacks me with a hug. Im completely frozen in place. Is she really hugging me? Is this a dream? No... pull yourself together. Be professional. Its probably all she wants right now. To meet a normal person who doesnt faint when she sees her.

I force myself to hug her back, but im still not able to say hello back to her.

Her hands slide up and down my back and i can feel the warmth spreading from them. Oh no... she needs to get away. This is bad.
The tips of her fingers dig shortly into my skin and i almost moan... but then she pulls away and i can breathe again. God... that was way too close.

"Hi." I finally manage to say.

"Do you like the room?" Billie asks, seemingly more professional and less childish now, but she still has that spark in her eyes.

"I... I cant imagine anything better. Its... well... perfect." I say, making myself look away from her and plaster my eyes on the walls of the room. Just the sight of her does something to me... shit.

She walks inside the room and i close the door behind her. As she walks past me, i can smell her perfume and shampoo. It smells heavenly. Like nothing ever before. Or maybe its her skin. If i hadnt been so determained to not make a fool of myself, i would have fallen to my knees begging for her to kiss me. Just one kiss.

When her back is turned to me while she looks at the room, my eyes naturally walk up and down her body. That perfect body. Woah... even with clothes on... no... stop that.

"I knew this place would be perfect." Billie says and turns around to look at me. Shes biting her bottom lip like ive seen her do in other videos of her.

"My other dancer has just arrived as well. I have to go see her too. But tomorrow at 10 am ill come get you and we can go to the studio. We're starting at a dance studio that i found so we can discuss the whole thing. We have a choreography already but you two need to learn it. Its not that hard i promise." Billie says, stepping closer to me with every word she says.
Now she's fight in front of me, looking slightly downwards to see my eyes.

Im out of air again. Shes breathtaking.

"You dont say much. Are you always like that?" She asks with a strange smirk and i cant tell if its a flirty smirk or just a "i know i can control you" smirk.

"No... just wait and see. I just need time to get comfortable." I say and try to fight a smile. My heart is doing loops and backflips and i cant stop it from making me smile.

She scoffs.
"Ill look forward to seeing the real you." She says and puts a hand on my waist. All of my muscles contract at her touch, but all she did was move me slightly so she could get to the door.

She lets go and walks away.

"See you tomorrow morning." She says and closes the door.

"What... the... fuck." I say to myself in shock. I expected none of that, and how did that just happen. And it happened to me??? Why me? And she just touched my waist.

I completely just melt onto the floor as if id been running a marathon. I didnt realise how much she makes my body do. First she turns me on beyond belief and then i have to fight it. Ive never gotten so exhausted over something so small.

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