hard and soft- b.e

Eight

Seeing Billie not being able to say anything, is the best feeling in the world. I can see the confusion, adoration and something along the lines of hornyness but im not sure exactly what thats about.

Her neck does a twitching movement and brings her back to reality. I almost forgot she has tics. That doesnt change anything tho, if anything, it makes her more special.

"You okay?" I ask her because her face has changed into something dark. She looks at the air behind me like she wants to run, and then she actually does.

"Im fine." She mumbles as she passes by me and grabs Alex on the way. She looks at him saying something and Alex looks steaight at me. I cant tell from this far away whats happening, but i dont think she was telling the truth when saying "im fine".

But i let it go and walk into the trailor where Sydney is getting her makeup done. I dont look at her or talk to her, i just grab my costume and go to change.

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When i come back outside when my makeup is done, i see that Billie is sitting on the grass, Alex standing up behind her with his hands on her shoulders. She's moving a lot but i dont think its on purpose. She stays in place as i walk closer to her to see whats happening. Im still far away when she does a weird stretch of her whole body across the grass like someone was pulling on her. Tics.

I dont know much about tics and i dont want to make it worse so i try to ask Alex about her instead of Billie. Just in case she needs to be concentrated or doesnt want to speak. Or cant speak.

"Is she okay?" I ask Alex. He looks down at Billie and she doesnt react to me being here. I dont even know if she saw me.

"Tic attack. Dont touch her right now, she'll be fine soon." Alex says. His words are comforting, i was worried she was in pain or something like that, but he seems calm enough like he's helped her before.

And just as im about to walk away, i hear her call my name. I turn around, and Billie is looking at me and trying to stand up. She gets another tic and has to sit down again. So i walk over to her. Alex lets go of her.

"Sorry i just ran... it wasnt about you i just didnt want you to panic if you saw me like this. I could feel it coming." Billie says, and the whole time she speaks, her eyes, neck and mouth twitches.

"Its fine i dont blame you. But you dont have to hide that from me, i really dont mind it. I just wish i knew how to help you." I say, and Billie smiles.

"There's not much you can do other than be patient with me and then not trying to stop my tics. If someone holds me down or something, it just makes it worse." She says, her eye twitching again. I nod.

"Okay, ill be here for you the next time if you want me to." I say with a slight smile. I must look really stupid with the crazy makeup and costume and talking to her so deeply. At least i dont have Sydneys scary costume on, that would have probably made me look less trustworthy right now. But she seems like she takes in my words and adds them in her mind to remember.

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Filming takes longer than i expected and its a lot harder to do the dances and right faces and act while dancing. And being on camera the whole time too. Its a lot more exhaustibg than i thought it would be, especially cus my muscles still hurt a little.
And by the end of the day, i can barely move. Again. Billie and Alex help me to the trailor so i can get my usual clothes on. And when they help me out, Sydney is standing with her arms crossed and staring us down like she doesnt approve of this. I try not to let it bother me.

"See you tomorrow Syd!" Billie says over her shoulder and puts me in a car. Sydneys dance is for some reason not as hard as mine, which seems really unfair cus she's the "evil" one.

"Isnt she tired too?" I ask Billie with a strangely high and annoying voice like a child.

"Oh yeah, she just has done this filming stuff before and knows how to hide it and deal with it. You'll be fine soon." She says and puts her hand on my sore thigh.

An electric shock of pleasure shoots through my body and i hold my breath. Once ive gotten over the shock of her touch, i can breathe again but i cant look at her. Especially not when i remind myself that im going on a date with her in a few hours. I still cant believe it. Will we go further than just the hand on my thigh?

Billie delivers me at the hotel and i force myself to walk up to my room. We say a quick see you later and then the car takes her away. My bag feels way heavier than it is and i throw it away the moment i can. I drop myself on the bed and give myself time to think through the rest of the night.

I relax my brain, not thinking about how much time i have, i just know that its best if i plan everything. Or at least think through every scenario and i havent had time for that until now. So i spend about 20 minutes laying in bed, with no music or podcast, no tv, no tik tok and nothing else distracting me. Just me and my thoughts.

When i feel like ive sorted out everything, i go to take a very warm bath to hopefully soften my tense muscles. Its so nice that i almost fall asleep, but then my phone rings and brings me back to reality.

"Oh shit ur bathing... sorry ill call later." Billie says on facetime. I have no idea why i answered the call while being fully naked, but done is done.

"No no its fine. Did you wanna say something?" I ask her, thinking that its a little funny how her face got red when she realized that im naked.

"No i just wanted to see you and hear your voice." Billie says. Her smile is blinding even through a phone.

"Well i should get up from here and get myself ready for you." I say. I realize how much it sounds like im just preparing myself to be a whore for the night just for her.

I put my phone on the floor and lift myself up from the bathtub and wrap myself in a towel.

Billie gasps and i look down at my phone so find out why shes gasping. I dry off my hand and pick up the phone and lean it against the wall on the sink so i dont have to hold it.

"What? Why did you gasp?" I ask Billie while cleaninc my face and drying my hair a little bit.

"Uhhhh... i accidently maybe might have seen a little bit of your boobs. Not that i looked! It was your fault you showed me!" She says. She looks really serious and im in shock. How could i be that stupid? Stupid stupid stupid.

I cover my face with my hands and sigh. I keep saying fuck and shit over and over again, while Billie mumbles sorry several times.

"Its not your fault i just cant believe how stupid i am." I say, uncovering my face just a little.

"If it makes u feel any better, they look really fucking perfect. I mean the shape and the size and everything... you are blessed." Billie says with a smile and then she starts laughing at herself. Im glad she thinks this is all funny because if she wasnt laughing right now, id be very nervous and very scared.

"Good for you my dress wont allow me to wear a bra." I say with a sneaky smile and she stops laughing to stare at me through the phone. Now all im seeing is her eye reallyyyy close to the camera. I chuckle.

"Huh?!?!? You have to let me touch them then. I wont be able to look at you if you dont let me." Billie says with cheery seriousness in her voice.

"You have my concent. Just... not in public obviously." I say and look at myself in the mirror so i can do my makeup. My hairdryer at home sucks so the one at the hotel feels like the best one ive ever tried.

"Of course of course." Billie says. But now i have to change into my dress and i want it to be a surprise for her so i have to hang up.

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