hard and soft- b.e

Twelve

-Billie's pov-

For the first time in weeks, I slept like a baby. I fell asleep with Claire in my arms and thats exactly how i woke up too. And at the perfect time, five minutes before my alarm went off. It became five minutes where i could just admire Claire.

Yesterday was the best date of my life. I havent had many, and even though it might not have looked that perfect and amazing, i have never felt this happy before. Claire just does something to me that i cant explain in other words than love. I dont know what else it could be.

"Take a picture, it will last longer." Claire says when she wakes up from the alarm and sees me staring at her.

"Yknow what? I think ill actually do that." I say with my phone in my hand because i had to stop the alarm. So i go to camera and take a picture of her cute face and her shoulders and colarbones showing above the duvet.

"If you send that to anyone... ill tell the whole world that i had sex with you and youre bad at it." Claire says, pointing a finger at my face. I look at her with a smile. We both know i will keep that picture to myself, and that she would never tell the world that.

"You look so beautiful." I whisper and scoot closer to her. Just as i do, she swoops her whole bodyweight on top of my lap in the matter of seconds. Im a little shocked, but mostly delighted, and i smile flirtingly.

"Yknow... i never thought id find a girlfriend... but... youre my girlfriend now right?" Claire asks me. In many other situations, id be scared of that commitment especially my job being what it is. But something about her pleading tone, her beautiful face and everything that she has been through in her life that she wont tell me all about, makes me feel safe enough to give her those simple words.

"Yes. If youre mine im yours." I tell her and look into her eyes to see the happiness spread along with some redness on her face. She leans down with a squeal and wraps her arms around me. I can feel her lips and nose on my neck.

"Im yours." She whispers and kisses my neck gently. Inside my head, i hear her voice echo - i love you Billie - but she doesnt say it. And thats probably too fast as well. But something inside me expected and wanted to hear those words from her mouth. Ill have to wait i guess.

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Once the music video is almost done, im starting to get anxious. Claire only came here to film the video, she'll have to go back home soon then. I dont want her to leave me. I would do almost anything to run off with her to Europe or something and travel from countrey to countrey for years until we finally settle together in a beautiful city in a beautiful house.

Thats my biggest dream, but i cant have that. Its too fast and too unrealistic. But i wont die just because i dont see her. It cant be that bad once shes gone right?..... right?

Claire baby 💋

I was completely ATTACKED by
my friends when i came into
the studio today

They are all amazingly insane
and they all wanna know what
you smell like 🤣

DONT tell them too much
Im yours remember
Only yours

I wont i promise
But i miss you so much baby

I dont know how ill be able
to live without you

We'll both be fine i promise
Ill figure out some way to
come and visit you as soon
as possible

I miss you too

Oh i gotta go now
I have to pretend to be a
damn dance teacher until
we get a new on

Should be interesting

Actually i just found out that
we have a tournament coming
up in a week or so

Sadly that means ill have to
work really hard on getting all of
this right before then

Just promise to call me
at least once every day okay?

I have to know that your alive

Lmao i promise

See u later pookie 😘

Bye baby 😍

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Everything feels so empty without her. I keep thinking about our first date and how easy it all felt. Now its so much harder. I have to focus on music and interviews and so much stuff, but i cant think about anything but Claire. Its so frustrating!

-Claire's pov-

Im glad i have to much dancing to catch up on before i can act like a teacher for the others, because if i didnt, i would be sulking and thinking about Billie all the time. Dont get me wrong, i think about her constantly, but it helps when im busy. Makes me feel less like ive abandonned her.

Three hard knocks on the door makes us all stop dancing and talking. Who could that be?
Me, Evelyn and Lana open the door, and there is Sydney.

"What are you doing here?" I ask her, trying not to sound and seem so utterly dissapointed and angry.

"Im here to dance. At least for a few days" Sydney says with a smirk and an evil look. I know she has something else to do here, and I have to find out what.

Bills ❤️

I just saw Sydney come through
the door to my studio
Do you know anything about
that?

What?
What's she doing there?
I thought she was going back
home to prepare for another
shoot with someone else

Maybe she's preparing for
something else
Im not sure her intentions
are exactly what youd call good
Shes got a deeper plan
Not just about dancing

Youre probably right
Can u call me and give the phone
to her?
I wanna ask her some stuff

Sure

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I call Billie and pretend like we're talking normally and then i go and give the phone to Sydney, saying that its Billie and she wants to talk to her.

I dont hear what happens but Sydney smiles just like she did when talking to Billie irl.
I let it go and put on my headphones to escape reality for a little while.

It feels like the call is taking so damn long, but finally, Sydney gives me my phone back. She has already hung up the call. What a bitch. So I text Billie instead askibg her what she said, but she just says not to worry. Wtf?!?

I turn off my phone and put it on silent, making a deal with myself to not answer anythibg for the rest of the dancing today and maybe even the whole day.

Maybe not the most rational choice, but the one that felt right. It felt needed. Disconnectibg from the whorld and givibg myself time to think.

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