hard and soft- b.e

Seven

-Billie's pov-

Claire's eyes are glowing in the sun as well as her skin. Im not sure if its just my perception of her looks, but she looks so at home with all the flowers. Like she was born here. Belongs here.

The almond shaped eyes with the dark blue color inside gets much more visible in this light. Its the first thing you notice when you look at her. And then her cheeks. Slightly rosy and her face in perfect harmony. And then her body... oh my god her body.

I wouldnt tell her this - at least not yet - but i cant take my eyes off of her wait and boobs. Whenever she isnt looking, i look at her body. It could of course be her bra that just fits perfectly but her boobs literally are a dream. Imagining the feeling of them in my hands doesnt feel like enough anymore. And her waist. Ugh... i just wanna grab her and hold onto her forever. Wrap my arms arounf that perfect body and never let go.

But i cant say that. I might scare her. And with my job and everything, i dont know if i can trust her. Its possible that this is all an act. It looks very real to me, but ive been wrong before. I have to be carefull which women i tell "hey i love your boobs can i hold them for you?"

Right now theres nothing i want more than to be able to trust her. To tell her what i think about her and what i wanna do to her. But i cant. Not yet.

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"Billie!" Alex says and snaps his fingers in front of my face. My eyes become clear again and i look at him.

"What?!" I say, annoyed when being ripped out of my daydreams.

"I think she saw you staring." Alex says with a sneaky smile. Oh shit, he knows. I sigh and look down at my shoes.

"Shut upppp." I say and he just laughs.

"Someone has a littlee cruuuushhhh." He teases and grabs my shoulder. I shrug him off but i cant stop myself from smiling just a little. He's annoying like that.

"Save it for later. I need your help with my date with her later so... youll get all the details if you want." I say and side eye him. He makes a throwing up gesture and holds his stomach.

"Id rather not. Im doing fine without it." Alex says and i start walking after all the cameramen and makeup artsist and everything like that.

Inside a trailor, we have all our clothes. The costumes for Sydney and Claire, and my more normal clothes. What ill wear is a dress. A summerdress with flowers and poofy sleeves. It very comfortable and i fell in love with it when i saw it. Its perfect in this field of flowers.

Once I have changed, i sit down to get my makeup done and Sydney walks in the door behind my chair to get changed int her costume. Her and Claire's costumes have taken a lot of planning to make comfortable, cus they really dont look comfortable.

Its not a costume like halloween costume, but more of art in clothing form. It looks as if Claire's costume is all four of the costumes Robert Wun made of the four season. And Sydneys look like the four layers of skin he made. Just mixed together.

Sydney puts half of her costume on and leaves the rest so she can get her makeup done.

"How did you come up with this?" Sydney asks pointing at her costume. I look over at her.

"It wasnt just me. I had a vision and then i got a looooot of help with the rest." I say and turn my face back so the makeuo artist can do her work.

"Which one do you like more? Mine or Claire's?" She asks. I look at her again. This feels like a trick question. Like picking your favorite child.

"I like them both. In different ways." I answer, without a smile. She wont take that as an answer i know it.

"But like... you must have a favorite." Sydney says, childishly evil. I look into her eyes to see if shes actually serious. Theres a shimmer in them like she's looking at a diamond. Her blonde hair is slid back into a tight bun behind her head so it can fit into the rest of the costume. She looks really good.

Something about that playfullnes in her voice is dragging me closer.

"Yours is the best. Its the darkest one. The evil one according to the plan of the video." I say and her eyes light up. She looks like she could jump up and kiss me if she werent held in the chair by the makeup woman.

"There's something strange about that girl you brought... Claire. How long have you known her?" Sydney says. She sounds genuinely curious but im not sure.

"Not very long. Only since she got here. Why?" I ask skeptically.

"She's really quiet. And sometimes she just stands there and looks. Not saying a word. Its really creepy. Have you looked into her?" Sydney asks, not looking at me but looking at herself in the mirror.

"A little. But she's just not like you. People dont have to be so outgoing and perfect looking to be normal and a good person. She's really cute and nice and good. There's nothing wrong with her." I say. I realize i sound a lot like im defending her right now. I might be.
But i really dont see why Sydney wouldnt like her. Shes an angel.

"But how well do you really know her?" Sydney asks, starting a small bubble of rage insie me.

"Better than you. And well enough." I answer, looking angirly at my own face in the mirror. But maybe she's right. I dont know her that well. But i do know Sydney. And she would do anything to make me doubt my own judgement.
I dont think anything is wrong with Claire. Of course not. But maybe i rushed our relationship a little since we're going on a date tomorrow. Is it too quick?

I sure as hell shouldnt ask Sydney that, so i just dont say anything. Shes quiet too, and when my makeup is done, i leave the trailor and almost bump into Claire whos on her way inside.

"Oh hi." I mumble and my face grows a smile the moment i see the shock on her face.

"Hi." She smiles and i feel like im melting from the inside out. A gush of wind behind her blows her hair in her face and she gets it in her mouth. She fights it out of the way, but im mesmerized by just the smell of her. Warm vanilla. Flowers. Spring and summer rain. The feeling of peace. All of that just by the smell te wind blows in my face from her hair.

I feel like ice cream melting onto the ground on a hot summer day, and i cant say a word. Claire had been at a loss for words with me several times, but not me. Im not that kind of person. What's different now? What is she doing to me?

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