hard and soft- b.e

Four

Sydney joins us and closes the door. Billie must have personally picked out the choreogrrapher because she is amazing. She has so much energy while still givibg us the breaks we need. And the dance style and the song is amazing. Once ive learnt all the moves and im just doing them over and over again, it feels like im floating.

Its not a hard dance. Its a little like ballet but witbout the stricktness and the dead toes. Its light and easy like ur dancing on water or in the air.

Sydney somehow manages to make her dance angry. I watch as the choreographer shows Sydneys dance and makes it look effortlessly beautiful like ny dance, and Sydney just kills ever step. She looks so heavy. Not light and easy. But maybe thats what Billie wants?
Black swan and white swan.

We spend the whole day learning the choreography, and by 4 pm, i cant move my arms and legs. Im completely drained of energy and Billie has to help me drink water.

She laughs when she tilts the water bottle by my mouth and pours water into it. I cant help but smile too.

"Maybe you need a day off tomorrow?" Billie asks. I look at her almost with panic.

"No!" Now that ive met her, i feel adicted to her laugh and her touch and her voice. I cant imagine having one day without her.

Billie looks shocked at my reaction.

"No... I mean, i can do this again tomorrow. The dance is in my bones now i just need some sleep. Maybe we can even start filming tomorrow. Or plan it all." I say, trying to explain myself out of my reaction.

She seems more accepting now and she nods.

"Okay, if you believe you can. I'll come and get you the same time tomorrow. Maybe you should go home now though." Billie says with a smile. I nod in agreement. That's probably best.

***

Billie doesnt drive with me back to the hotel, she's still working. That gives me time to overthink in the car. Why do i react this way when im near Billie? Why am i so attatched already?

So many questions with no answers are rumbling inside my head and makes me just want to cry.

The moment im in my room, i throw myself on the bed and finally i dont have to move my legs and carry my bag. I almost fall asleep, but then my phone beeps. I dont touch it until i get three beeps in a row.
Its Billie.

Billieeilish

Did you get home okay?

Im so tired of working

Did you like the song though?

Yes, omg that song was amazing
I felt like i was floating

Does that mean u had fun???

Yes, i had a lot of fun
But i dont thinn Sydney likes
me very much

Why do u say that?

Well, did u see the way she
looks at me?
Its like she wants to strangle
me before i get too close to u

Are u two like old friends or smt?

Not exactly that, but she is friends
with someone i know and when i
tried to find dancers i asked our
mutual friend and he showed me
some videos of her

That was about a week ago and
she came over for a kind of
audition
And obviously she got the part 😊

I didnt go to an audition?

No, i was more sure about you
Sydney doesnt seem so friendly
but she has the talent i need

She has a very different way
of dancing compared to me

Yea, it fits her personality

You dance how you look as well
Perfectly balanced, light, easy,
effortless and you look amazing
while doing it

U flirting with me miss Eilish?

What would u do if i was?

Something i cant say or write

So how would i find out
what u will do if u cant tell me?

I could show u...

Are u asking me on a date
miss Claire?

Only if you say yes

How about tomorrow for
dinner at 7? Ill pick u up

Deal
Wear ur pretty panties

Only if u dont wear any

Is under a dress okay?
I have a rly cute one

Perfect

But before then, just act like
we did today
Dont treat me like we're going on
a date

Because of Sydney? Or press?

A little bit of both
Sydney thinks shes my number
one but im not so sure

Okay, lets hope i have a good
poker face

See u tomorrow princess

See you mommy

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What did i just do? My hands are shaking and soaked in cold sweat. Is this really happening? And where did i get all that currage from? Is Billie actually being serious?
I would do almost anything to see what she's doing and how her face looks right now. If shes acting like i am right now or if that was just another casual convo for her.

No, dont overthink it. She said yes and she's a nice person. She wouldnt play me. This IS actually happening. And i need to plan it and i need some help.

I get Evelyn and Lana on a call and i start screaming at them to help me. They both jump with slight delays from my screams and they both mumble something to themselves before talking to me.

I show them the dress i was gonna wear and they both think its perfect. Its a thin bright purple dress with darker purple flower patterns on and spaghetti straps. It has a slight v-neck and goes to my knees. Short but not too short in my opinion.

"What about panties and bra?" Evelyn asks. I go quiet. With the straps i cant wear a bra. And i made a deal with Billie to not wear panties. Should i?
Just the thought of keeping my deal and going on a date with her with no panties on, gives me butterflies.

"Im not wearing any." I say with a very careful voice. They go quiet for a short time.

"Hello?" I ask. And they both start screaming.

"Calm down calm down, its a first date there probably wont happen anything. But i made a deal and im gonna keep it." I say. Am i lying? Will something happen between Billie and I?

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