Mysteries Live in the Mountains

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"Santanhí...?"

I huffed in annoyance before turning back to see the eldest daughter of the Sully family standing full of hesitation. The Sully girls were always softer and not so head on with confrontation... Especially Kiri. 

"Oh... Kiri... Hi..."

In all honesty I felt bad for blowing up on everyone. I barely even knew what my deal was. Stress probably. I was overwhelmed and confused. I missed my family and my home. My once promised future that I held so dearly to my heart. I feel lost in what my purpose is and why I can heal the people around me. Why out of all Na'vi it was me who Eywa gave this sort of gift to. None of it made any sense.

"Do you mind if I sit?"

Kiri's careful voice pulled me out of my thoughts as I nodded giving her reassurance that I in fact did not mind her company.

"There is something so peaceful about this place... It's as if Eywa is closer than she ever has been before."

My ears perked at the words she spoke and in an instant I felt as if I was no longer alone.

"W-what do you mean? You feel her.."

My words came out almost at a whisper. The idea that I wasn't the only one who's heart longed to follow this mere feeling that rang in the back of my head, it made me feel seen. The idea that I wasn't the only one with a gift made me feel hopeful that I wouldn't be left to figure it all out on my own.

"I hear her... I hear her heartbeat. It feels like she's so close as if she's right here."

I felt at my chest tighten at her words. Not exactly what I was hoping for.

"And it has only gotten stronger since you and my brothers were attacked by the Palulukan."

My breath hitched at her words. After I got attacked by the Palulukan... That's when the dreams started and that's when my gift manifested. That's when Kiri's feelings of the Great Mother grew. It has to mean something.

"What is it Santanhí? Does that mean something to you?"

I felt Kiri's hand on my shoulder as she searched for answers through the shifting of my eyes and sudden hitched breaths. I want to tell her the truth. The warnings that appeared in my sleep about her brother. Violence to come even though it made no sense. The reason for my magically healed leg after only a week of treatment from her grandmother. But then I thought about the warnings.

"If other clans were to find out... If the Sky People were to find out. You would be in grave danger Santanhí."

Telling Neteyam was stupid enough, but he knew there was something wrong. It was the only way to settle his questions. But telling anyone else, that would put everything at risk. I have to hide it from them.

"No.. Kiri I'm sorry. I could only wish to feel as close to our Great Mother like you."

Lying. I really do hate it. I feel so many things. I feel as if someone is trying to speak to me but their words are caught in the back of their throat. Whispers linger in the back of my mind fighting to speak over my daily thoughts. I feel useless as a blessing goes to waste because of the secret it must be.