Love. I want to fall in love one day. That's one of my dream. Find someone that you truly love and care about. If only I could just find the wright person. The one that loves me. The one that care for me. I want me to choose who I want to be with. Even if people say that they don't like him, I could say that they don't know him well enough to understand what he feels. Hmmm... I think it would just be victim behaviour... yeah, forget that. Yeah, I just want a good relationship like the one my parents have. I really want to but... I'm scared. I don't want to go outside. I don't like people. That's why loving someone is an utopia for me, it will never be a reality. If only I could just love like the others. Or even be like the others. I'm not even cool to be around because I don't like being touched, I don't like being approached, I don't like being talking to... to put it in a nutshell, I'm a mess that nobody wants. I'm just here. Wandering around and hoping for the best to happen. I don't want to change my destiny or anything, I just let life do it's thing. Even though, for me, she just threw at me the worst characteristics. I really try to be more social... but I can't. When I try, sometimes people go talk to me. And I just find them ANNOYING! Like, okay I get it, your parents aren't going to buy you the new bag you wanted! Womp womp. At least they care about you and want the best for you! At least you don't hear them yell at each other because they find you useless! At least... they love you as in part of the family... not like me, they love each other, but hate me. I don't know why. And I don't think I want to know to be honest. I just want to be in my world and imagine something for myself, that's all. I don't need some fancy shit or want all the attention. Just give me a bed, food, some cute clothes, plushies and no people yelling everytime I do something, and I'm good. I will be in my safe spot, my happy place. That's when I asked myself :
"What do I need to do to have that life?"
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AcakJust some random burst of writing energy (and some random bs lol) Also, if you want to use it as the beginning of one of your story (or even a part of it), feel free to use! Thanks for reading in advance!
