I had just broken up with my girlfriend Ellie today. We were going out for 2 years but i couldn't pretend to be in love with her anymore not when I was in love with someone else. We had been fighting for a while so everyone knew it was coming but it doesn't make it hurt any less. I had spent the last 2 years of my life with this person so it was strange to be alone now. The house felt empty without her.
Me and Leah had been friends for years and at first I thought that's all she was to me but when I realized I was falling in love with her I had to break up with Ellie. I didn't know if Leah felt the same but I couldn't do it to Ellie any longer.
Leah was my best friend so despite the feelings I had for her she was the only person I wanted to talk to about this so I texted her.
Me
Me and Ellie broke up
Le🤍
On my way, and I have wine x
I sighed, i didn't know what I did in my life to deserve a fried like her but I was so grateful. She always knew what I needed, sometimes she knew before I did.
I waited for her to arrive while wiping the tears from my cheeks that felt like they haven't stopped all day. I had a film on the tv while I was curled up on my sofa but I couldn't bring myself to focus on it, too caught up in the thoughts swirling around my head. I didn't want to ruin mine and Leah's friendship but I didn't know how long I could keep on pretending I wasn't in love with her.
My thoughts were interrupted by a soft knock at the door. Knowing it was Leah I got up and made my way over. Opening the door I was greeted by her holding a bottle of wine with a small smile on her face.
She stepped inside, pulling me into a tight hug, obviously noticing my tear stained cheeks and red, puffy eyes.
We walked into the living room after pulling away from the hug, me sitting back in the seat I had spent the majority of the day on and Leah going into the kitchen, filling 2 glasses up with the bottle of white wine she had brought over before taking a seat next to me.
"What happened" she asked softly
Her question making my eyes glass over. I couldn't tell her she was the reason I ended things with Ellie because i couldn't tell her I was in love with her.
"I just didn't love her anymore, and she felt the same way. We have been fighting for weeks but it was still so hard to tell her" I told her, letting the tears fall from my eyes again
"Come here" she said, pulling me into her side as we sat back on the sofa, my head resting on her shoulder
"It's going to hurt for a while, but it's what's best for both of you. You can't stay with someone you don't love, you will find someone. You're an amazing girl y/n anyone would be lucky to love you" she told me. Hearing her say this made me cry harder. I didn't want to find someone else I wanted her.
I sat up looking into her eyes, deciding if I didn't do something now I never would. She followed my actions, facing me with a confused expression at my sudden movement
I just did it. I kissed her, but as soon as I did I immediately pulled away
"I'm sorry" I let out through my tears I don't know why I did that it was stupid, I thought to myself as I hid my face in my hands
"It's okay, you're just confused and overwhelmed" she told me rubbing her hand up and down my back
"I'm not confused" I mumbled, my words muffled by my hands my face was still pressed into
"What" Leah said, her hand freezing its movements
"I broke up with Ellie because I wasn't in love with her anymore. I wasn't in love with her because I'm in love with someone else" I said, my words drowned by the tears that were leaving my eyes at a fast pace
I looked up to meet her eyes, they were filled with shock and confusion
"Who are you in love with, y/n?" She asked, her question coming out just above a whisper
"I'm in love with you Leah" I told her my body overcome with relief, but when Leah's face changed to a frown and she moved away from me on the sofa I felt my heart break for the second time today.
Not being able to look at her face, I stood up and started pacing around my living room. Waiting. Waiting for her to say something. To say anything.
"Y/n i- " she said her eyes now glossing over, mirroring my own
"It's fine leah, I know you don't feel the same. You can go" I told her, my voice breaking as I spoke
"No I-" she said standing up, gently holding my shoulders to stop my frantic pacing
"I'm in love with you too." She let out "I couldn't tell you because you were with Ellie. But I've loved you for a while now. I tried to get over you but it's impossible. It's impossible not to love you" she told me, a single tear escaping her eyes as she started into mine
I didn't reply, I just crashed my lips onto hers. Not caring that the tears from my eyes had made their way onto our connected lips.
Her hands moved to my cheeks wiping the tears away as mine moved to her hips pulling her closer to me.
She pulled away, her lips littering kisses on my cheeks, jaw and neck. I just stared at her, finding it hard to believe she loved me back but I was just relived that I finally had the courage to tell her how I felt.
"I love you" I told her as I pulled her into a hug, my senses overcome with her. Just her.
"I love you" she said into my ear, before she kissed the skin under it.
This night had not gone the way I had expected, but I wasn't mad. I still needed time to get over Ellie, the breakup was fresh but I knew Leah would be here waiting when I was ready.
