Me and Leah had broken up 2 months ago. We had been going out for 2 years but we just couldn't find time for each other anymore. Leah's life was so busy after winning the euros and my job was very demanding. The first month was so hard for me. I was so upset, I barley left my house. I truly loved Leah, I still do but she had moved on so I told myself to do the same. She had a girlfriend, they had started dating last month, when Beth told me this, it hurt, I thought she would still be hurt after our breakup like I was but clearly she had gotten over it and I was happy for her.
So when I got a call from her it took me by surprise. I was just about to get ready for bed but when her name popped up on my screen it stopped me in my tracks. I cautiously answered
"Leah?" I asked, my voice filled with confusion
"Hi.. sorry for calling I- I just didn't know who else to call" she let out, her voice was filled with emotion and I could tell she was crying
"Are you okay?" I asked, the confusion I was feeling moments ago now replaced with concern
"Can you come over?" She asked, her voice breaking
"Yeah, yeah of course" I said my voice soft.
Ending the call I went to the door, sliding my shoes on and picking up my car keys on the way outside.
Maybe this was a bad idea. She had a girlfriend and I doubt she would be happy if I showed up to their house but Leah was upset and I wasn't going to ignore that.
Pulling up outside Leah's house I got out of my car and made my way to her door. I hoped this wasn't going to awkward but when she opened the door, tears streaming down her cheeks I knew she just needed someone to talk to right now and I was more then happy to do that.
"Oh leah" I let out, my voice quiet as I took in her appearance.
I followed her into the kitchen and we sat down at the island. Leah tried to wipe the tears from her cheeks but fresh ones replaced them almost instantly. I was starting to get worried, she was really upset.
"What's going on?" I asked my voice calm and patient as I waited for her to tell me what had caused this
"I had a fight with Laura. I don't know what to do, she's really upset and it's my fault" she got out between broken sobs. Seeing her this distraught broke my heart
"It's okay, I'm sure when she gets back you can talk about whatever happened and fix it" i told her, trying to calm her down.
"I don't think I can do it anymore, I rushed into a relationship after we broke up and I shouldn't of " she cried into her hands
"Leah you deserve to be happy, and if she makes you happy then that's great. Im sure she is amazing" I told her, trying to hide the hurt in my voice. This was hard, giving your ex dating advice for someone else felt weird.
"Im not happy. I haven't been happy since you left. And she is amazing but she's not you and I wish she was. I miss you." She said, her red eyes meeting mine as they filled with tears at her words.
"Leah.." I sighed, she was just emotional. She didn't mean what she was saying, no matter how much I wanted them to be true, they weren't. but that didn't mean it hurt any less.
"You're upset and I don't think me being here is helping. Text your girlfriend, I'm sure you will resolve whatever happened" I said standing up. I didn't want Leah to see me cry and I could feel the tears burning in my eyes, ready to start at any moment but before I got out of the kitchen Leah stopped me, putting her body between the door and me
"Please y/n. Im still in love with you. Laura left because I told her that. I can't stand being away from you and these have been the hardest 2 months of my life because all I wanted to do was see you and I couldn't. I thought Laura would help me get over you but she didn't, nothing can help me get over you because it's impossible. I've never loved someone like I love you." She said, her voice desperate as she watched my face for a reaction to her words
She had just said all I wanted to hear for the past 2 months and i didn't know what to do. I stood there, squeezing my eyes closed, I couldn't look into her eyes any longer without completely giving in to her. I needed to think. I felt hot tears rolling done my cheeks and then I felt Leah's warm hand wiping them away. She gently cupped my face in her hands
"Please" she pleaded and when I opened my eyes I was met with her blue ones staring back at me
I couldn't find the words to tell her that I had been waiting for this moment, that breaking up with her had been my biggest mistake. So instead i leant in and kissed her lips softly. It caught us both off guard, but it said I miss you, I love you, I'm sorry all at once without any words being spoken.
Pulling away, i smiled at Leah and she smiled back
"I love you too" i whispered as our faces remained close together. Leah pulled me into her and just being in her arms filled me with such comfort. comfort I hadn't felt since she had been gone.
I knew there was a long road ahead of us to get back to where we were before but we loved each other and that's all that mattered, our love would overcome whatever challenges lay ahead of us because we would get through them together. We would do it differently this time.
