_________________________________________she couldn't sleep at night
not anymore.
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February 20th, 2023
IVANNA DIDNT SLEEP THAT NIGHT, I mean how could she?
Her mind ridden with thoughts no one wants to ever think, that they aren't good enough, that they deserved what happened to them. Ivanna's emotions were going up and down all night, but none of them were tiredness.
Anger. Sadness. hope.
They all led back to one thing, Timothée Chalamet.
Ivanna was angry at Timothée, for all that he did for her. Leaving her because of his own insecurities and then being with another girl? Hell she was furious.
And then she would be thrown into a fit of sadness, sad that it ended. That someone she loved couldn't talk to her, and be uncomfortable for mere minutes to have a conversation and instead decided it would be better to leave her without any notice.
But every time she came back to the feeling of hope. Ivanna still hoped, she hoped endlessly that Timothée would come back to her. That he would realise that what he did was wrong and unnecessary, that he would come back to her and they would love together again. They would be in love with each other again.
Ivanna looked over at the clock on her bedside table and sighed at what she saw. 02:34:23.
The hopes of falling asleep now gone and replaced with determination to vent her feelings, and so she did that in one of the best ways she knew.
And no it wasn't breaking glasses and her furniture— she had already done that, it didn't do much help to her.
She would write songs.
And that is how Ivanna found herself in her music room in the early hours of the morning writing songs and pouring her heart and her tears out on her piano, and she did it with a burning passion that no one would ever be able to rival.
IVANNA HAD WRITTEN AT LEAST EIGHT SONGS, dyed her hair once she was done writing said song a jet black color, and had tried different types of makeup, all while trying to heal and find herself amidst her pain.
She wanted to change herself, not because she hated what she saw or that what she saw reminded her of Timothée, but because she wanted to change.
Ivanna didn't want to be the girl who had her heart broken by someone who obviously couldn't care less anymore. She hated being sad, hated being unproductive due to her emotions.
Ivanna wanted something different, something that would help her get through the hard times. And she did.
February 21st, 2023
IVANNA DECIDED SHE WANTED TO RELEASE SOME OF the songs she had made during her fit of emotions.
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Fanfiction'ᴛᴇʟʟ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʙᴀʙʏ, ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ'ᴍ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʙᴀʙʏ' |•. Russian singer songwriter "Ivanna Sokolova " and Timothée Chalamet were once a couple, Timothée left her because he thought it would be best. That he wasn't enough for her, for what she nee...
