___________________________________________" change didn't change me
like I wanted it too."
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March 3rd, 2023
IT HAD BEEN JUST ABOUT 3 WEEKS SINCE THE SPLIT OF TWO FAMOUS INDIVIDUALS. Most were shocked, some were angry, some were even in denial. (much like the previous couple)
Timothée Chalamet tried to hide behind his new relationship that started just a week after his break with Ivanna Sokolova, but did it ever work?
The answer is no. God no.
Timothée was sitting in his new apartment— alone. The first time he was alone in weeks after he had been surrounding himself around Lily and all these modeling and acting jobs to deal with the pain. To deal with the guilt.
He was annoyed with everything. With everyone. With lily.
He couldn't remember a time where he wasn't annoyed as of late. Timothée thought that getting with lily would help him heal but it did the exact opposite.
Everything that lily did, whether she knew it or not reminded him of Ivanna. The way she did things, the way she went about life brought the thoughts to his head that Ivanna would be able to do it better, that he would be more comfortable with Ivanna, that Ivanna would understand something better.
It was nothing against lily, which he realised in his self wallowing.
It was just that lily........ wasn't Ivanna.
No one could be like Ivanna in his eyes. She was perfect. She is perfect.
Lily wouldn't be able to run her fingers through his hair in the morning as it didn't feel the same as when Ivanna did—it wasn't as comforting. Lily wouldn't be able to make him happy the same because only Ivanna knew what he really liked, be didn't even really need to tell Ivanna she was just incredibly intuitive and noticed things easier than anyone else would. Just like how Timothée is.
Having to redo something that was unredo-able with someone else was exhausting, having to try and forget the memories someone else resided in was impossible.
Because Timothée knew he didn't want to forget them. He didn't want to forget Ivanna. He knew that he still loved her, that he would always love Ivanna. No matter the fact that he's in a relationship he couldn't help but still be in love with her.
Timothée felt guilty for using lily as a rebound, she didn't deserve it. She too deserved someone better.
But Timothée couldn't help it. He breathed, sleeped and dreamed of Ivanna. Even when they were together she was the one thing he looked forward to waking up to in the morning and the one thing he looked forward to as he went to sleep at night.
So there Timothée sat in silence staring at nothing in particular dreaming of his girl, the love of his life, the one he wanted back more than anything.
But he couldn't because he hurt her beyond imagination and all because he thought she deserved more than him.
She deserved more than what he could give her. Even though somewhere, deep deep down in Timothée's heart, in his body. He knew that Ivanna didn't care about how good or bad he was, but just that she wanted him.
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Fanfiction'ᴛᴇʟʟ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʙᴀʙʏ, ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ'ᴍ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʙᴀʙʏ' |•. Russian singer songwriter "Ivanna Sokolova " and Timothée Chalamet were once a couple, Timothée left her because he thought it would be best. That he wasn't enough for her, for what she nee...
