Playing the Player's Game

Chapter Twenty-one : Here's My Confessions

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Here's My Confessions

Donna Smith POV (before she gave True the ultimatum)

I was thinking about this situation. I couldn't take it! It's either me or the plan. There's no in between. I can't take the in between. I can't take the hickies on her neck and the subtle gestures.

It's me or the plan.  I have to me her choose.

I'll keep my promise but I don't know if I'll feel the same if she chooses the plan over me. I'm head over heels for her but if she not the same, then my feelings will drop drastically. That will hurt me so bad, cut me so deep.

True is the first girl I've ever fallen in love with. When I saw her two years ago, I knew I had to have her. She was beautiful and kind. You could see she was in pain though. She'd always smile but her smile would convey her pain. It never reached her eyes. I could tell she wasn't happy.

I knew that smile all too well. Me wanting to help her turned into infaution then into love. I can't lose her, it would honestly crush me.

Especially now that's she's my go-to partner at the agency. Photographer said we had fantastic chemistry together. Like we were actually in love. If only he knew...

Mandolin Carter POV

I looked at the apartment I lived in. But I didn't have the balls to get out the cat to go in. My heart was pounding and I felt sick to my stomach.

Was it from the alcohol or the nerves? Was it both mixing together?

I felt even sicker thinking about the possibilities. So much could go wrong.. What if she's already leaving me?

I saw my hands shaking and I couldn't breathe. Tears flowed from my eyes and my skin got slick with sweat. I felt so sick.

"I-i can't do this." I managed to get out, feeling sober and crying my heart out. "I don't wanna loose her any faster!"

He frowned, "Mandolin May Carter, go woman the fuck up. You did this! This is your fault! Stop acting like it isn't!"

I felt myself grow stiff. "So fucking what? I know it's my fault! I fucking know!"

"Then own up to your damn mistakes and tell her what the hell you did! I'm tired of seeing innocent women hurt by the hands of you, Mandolin. Now go or I will." he screamed to me.

I got out the car, still shaking. It was right by my side and wrapped an supportive arm around my shoulders. I learned against his head for a second before standing up straight.

"I can do this." I chanted under my breath.

"Go upstairs." he said, following me.

I pushed open the door and felt like crying and throwing up. I entered the door and saw the last thing I ever wanted to see and expected to see.

Lexington Wells POV

Angel looked at me, "Are you ready?"

I looked up the rock wall and the test of the obstacle course. I shook my head no. She smiled at me. "You got this babe."

Who would've imagined this? Our second date at an obstacle course? I sure didn't.
"Scale the wall, jump down the other side, climb the rope and reach the top, through the tires, run the mile to the pool, swim the lap, get out and climb through the tunnels. Run back to the start through the ladder football style."

"And that's easy?" I looked at her incredulously. She cracked a smile and kissed my forehead, her lips lingering.

"You got this babe! I'll even go easy on you." she said.

"Why do you do this?" I asked, watching the safety harness be attached to me.

"Because I want to live before it's too late." she said, looking at me in the eyes.

I nodded. I could do this. I could do this. The man shot the fake pistol in the ear and we took off towards the rock wall. I climbed as fast as I could, a few steps behind Angel.

She was a freaking monkey. I slipped, loosing footing. I went down a few feet before grabbing a hold of the rocks again. I scrambled up to see Angel, jumping off the back side and running off.

I looked down and felt sick. It was so far down. I jumped anyways and ran towards the ropes hoping to catch up to Angel before she beat me.

I was really liking this girl.

Mandolin Carter POV

She was staring at me. I looked right back at her.

"True, I have something to tell you." I said and she just looked at me.

"Talk." she said, sitting on the edge of the bed.

"Look here, I know I was wrong and I know I shouldn't have done what I did in the past. But you don't understand. I don't even understand what's wrong with me OK? And no interrupting me." I said, noticing her opening her mouth. "I need attention. Don't ask why because I don't know. I literally feel sick without attention, it's like I have panic attacks or something. I feel like I'm not important and like I'm nothing. That's how I've been feeling lately without you here. But I know I can change for you. You're the first girl I've ever truly loved and the only girl I've cried over besides family."

"I've done so much wrong the past three years and I'm sorry. Back when we first started dating, I slept with this girl named Julia then I came home to you. A few months later, I started secretly dating some girl who's name I don't even remember, then it was Lexington, then it was Jasmine, then it was Danielle and Loni, and Jovi, and Johnni, and Samaria, Samantha, and Jessica, and Nae, and that other little hoe. There are so many others and I'm so sorry. A few days ago I tried to get back with Lexington. And I never meant to hurt you. I just-please don't leave me."

I looked into True's eyes and saw her tears. I hugged her to my chest and she sobbed into me.

Maybe, just maybe I didn't lose her after all.

End of chapter Twenty-one. I hope you enjoyed this chapter. I did. Don't go vote and comment. It's also unedited. Anyways, go check out Lucy's Life.

BTW, I will be starting a job soon so my updates will slow down. But I might finish the story before I start the job.

Trues decision is still not in this chapter. But it will be in the next chapter. I promise guys lol.

Xoxo,
Lesha.