08.20.21
"Why not me?"
I asked
out of confusion,
out of misery.
"Why did he
choose her?"
I asked again as tears
fell on my cheeks.
"I was there all along," I said,
trying to figure him out.
"So, why not me?"
"Well, maybe because
it's not even you in the first
place, even from the beginning,"
Grandma said.
"You might just be
someone who'd come around
in his life but not someone
he'd like to hold longer than
he should.
You might be his first love
but that doesn't make you his last.
You might feel that he's the one
but it's quite different on his part.
You may have
made him into a better man
but that doesn't mean it'd be
for you. Just because you were
there in his transitions doesn't mean
you are bound to be there
forever."
"You know, sweetheart,
when a person falls in love,
it can be once or several
times in a lifetime,"
and I finally understood why.
I was a portion of the
"several times in a lifetime."
—georginariver
