The chase

@22.5@

Hey people, sorry for taking a break for so long, I've had too much to go through for the past few months. So I re-read my entire book myself to see where and how I could continue this.

Then I noticed, that I had subconsciously based my characters on real life people.

For example, Jay is unfortunately, pretty much me. She's smart and stupid at the same time and makes wrong choices at her worst (which I suppose everyone does)
Knox, well again might unfortunately be based on my boyfriend. (Yes I have a boyfriend haha). Yes. He's pretty attractive like Knox (the face and abs part is very much true haha) but mysterious and secretive. He doesn't talk to me much. And I've been trying to break things off with him in the right time as it seems like he wants only one thing most guys want from a woman (I'll leave the guessing upto you.). Whenever I try to break things off he says that I'm overthinking or some shit.
We have been dating only for 2 weeks or so (way after publishing this book) and it feels like I subconsciously manifested him through Knox (most of his personality and appearance). I've asked several people for advice and most of them obviously told me to break off and cut all contact with him while the rest told me to give it time.

I, like Jay don't actually want to end things with him. And don't worry, I'm not pregnant or anything. It's just that I feel there might be something else which I might be misunderstanding. But yes, I'll still break things off with him when I'm clear that he wants only my body and not my heart and soul.
Ladies and gay men, please don't make mistakes like me where you are sticking with your man because you find him attractive even if you can see so many red flags coming through (this might be the side effect of growing up with Wattpad lol).
So I'm determined to make Knox the complete opposite of my boyfriend.

Ok let's move to the next character, Jay's father, yes he is very much identical to my own father. Yes he did cheat and everything written about the cheating part plus the restaurant scene was in this book was true.

In short he's a total scumbag.

And Jay's mother is also identical to my own mother. Unfortunately she has a deeper side in her part, my scumbag of a father who obviously cheated on her also abused her mentally and always wanted sex with her.
So she unfortunately directed this anger towards him to me. And last four years have been terrible (since he left). Like Jay I really wished that I had run away from my house. But when my father finally left us, I started openly telling her that what she had done to the younger me was wrong. And she finally stopped with the outbursts of anger on me and asked for forgiveness. But it still feels unpleasant to stay in the same house as her.

I still love my mother but I simply can't forgive her no matter what. And when I try to say this out loud people just misunderstand me and think that I'm the cruel one here.

Ok, moving on to Jiwan, he's based off my cousin brother, he might be bipolar and it scares me to be with him at times but we're still best friends as he never harmed me in any way plus his family story is more depressing than mine. However he still tries to be good.

Captain Chen is inspired from captain holt from the 9-9 (this show actually inspired me to write this book) and he's also something which I wish my father was.

Patricia obviously is inspired from Captain holts enemy: Madeline wutch. Her red hair and sharp appearance is from this animated movie about pirates whose name I forgot.

Swati, is based on my friend. Who portrays to be good friends with you but might backstab you at any given time (oops! Spoiler. Or is it?)

Other characters, I came up with them on my own. And that's it!