The Loveless Letter (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 12

POV: Bree

I sighed wistfully.

But... this wasn't a sad sigh.

It was a sigh that longed for something I couldn't have.

I was in my bed with my eyes closed; the fan whirling overhead. My body contorted in a number of positions, but I couldn't remain still. My mind was too active. I was thinking about all the wonderful and amazing things that had happened this weekend.

This weekend was a...

Dream.

A dream that had come true.

Spending time with Liv, just the two of us, was just what I had needed. My body felt more relaxed, and I wasn't chomping on my nails anymore. I felt better than I had in months. No worries. No stressing over an impending wedding. Just pure relaxation.

And it was no thanks to Henry.

All the credit was to Liv.

I just about swooned when Liv defended me against Ava's hatefulness. I hadn't expected to meet the woman, but she hadn't changed at all. She was just as pompous and arrogant as she was in high school. I almost had tears in my eyes because I was laughing so hard after Liv put Ava in her place. The woman practically tripped over herself to get away from my enraged friend.

But I only could reminisce for so long before my mind wandered back to the present.

My wedding...

I still couldn't believe I was getting married.

In some ways, I felt like I was leading Henry on. Marrying him while my heart belonged to another. It never wavered. I didn't love Henry. I loved Liv. Always had. And I am afraid I always will.

That thought brought tears to my eyes.

I was kind of pathetic, huh?

When I pictured my future, it certainly wasn't with Henry. I saw Liv in all her glory. Her short hair, her bulky arms that had my mouth watering, and those piercing eyes that looked through my soul. I pictured my future with the woman who knew me inside and out.

This life I was living was wrong.

Just so...

Wrong.

I never had felt so strongly about something in my life. My body called out to Liv's like she was the other part of my soul.

The other half I couldn't have.

The other half that didn't want to return and be whole.

That's right.

I felt an empty ache inside my chest when Liv wasn't around.

I sniffed sadly and buried my head into my pillow.

My mind took a turn for the worse and it started to remember things I didn't want to remember. Memories that made my jaw clench. Memories that made my heart constrict painfully. Memories that fueled my body with a burning jealousy that threatened to spill out into this twisted world.

One particular memory came to the forefront of my mind.

It was at the celebration dinner when Liv got a little too close to a certain... guest.

I was really, really jealous.

I didn't want to show any emotion on the outside, but I was seething on the inside.

Every time they brushed hands or every time they leaned into each other, had me biting my lip hard enough to where I was bleeding by the end of the night. I know I was the one that wanted them to get along, but I didn't want them to get along that well!

"Goddamnit..." I groaned into my now warm pillow.

I was about to flip the pillow over to the cold side, but my doorbell rang.

"What? Who the hell?" I said aloud.

With an unwilling body, I got up from my bed and made my way to the door. I wasn't expecting visitors and had no idea who would be showing up at my door. I knew it wasn't Henry because he was still in New York 'working'. At this point, I'm starting to think that he doesn't actually want to be here.

As soon as I unlocked the door, I got knocked off my feet by a fierce hug.

"Surprise bitch!" Jess said excitedly.

"Jess?" I asked dumbly.

"The one and only." Jess replied as she disentangled herself from me and made her way into my apartment.

"What- what are you doing here?" I asked.

"Can I not visit my favorite person?" Jess answered, her lip formed into a pout.

"I mean... you can, but it's just kind of early. I didn't know you could be up this early. Let alone be dressed, moving, and doing something."

"That's slander! How dare you, Bree! I'll have you know that I'm turning over a new leaf!" Jess said.

Yeah.... Right....

"Sure. And I'm going to stop drinking coffee." I scoffed.

"Why you gotta be so mean?" Jess whined.

"Just stating the obvious." I said with a shrug. "Now, why are you here?"

"Well... I wanted to be the to spill the tea." Jess said ominously.

"What? What tea?" I asked.

Jess dug into her jean pocket and pulled out her phone. She walked the distance to me while she was furiously typing on her phone. She finally unlocked it and flipped the phone for me to see. I squinted at the screen and my eyes went wide.

I couldn't believe what I was seeing.

There was just no way it was true.

It's got to be photoshop or- or...

"Stunned?" Jess asked. "I couldn't believe it myself yesterday, but they were together clear as day. I thought taking a picture of them would leave nothing to interpretation."

"Liv and Taylor?" I said, shocked.

"That's what it looked like. What else could them being together mean? Liv doesn't exactly take to new people well."

I just couldn't believe it.

Liv and Taylor?

Together?

It had only been a week since we had gone on our mini-vacation. I didn't think time would move this fast or that Liv would begin dating. I didn't know what I was thinking. I naively believed that she would stay as she was and we would be together.

All of a sudden, everything was starting to feel very real.

I was marrying Henry.

Liv was moving on...

I couldn't help but think that I was making a huge mistake.