Tour Trouble - Taylor Swift

Part 8

Ellie's POV

I was avoiding speaking to Taylor all morning, especially while I got ready and ate breakfast. I must have been the first person out of the hotel room and to get in the car to the arena. I pretended to sleep the whole way there and when we arrived I refused to go to hair makeup and costume. I didn't want to do it.

Taylor was starting to get stressed and worried about what I was doing. I needed to be on stage for the formations and for everything to look good but I didn't want to. I told her I quit so why wouldn't she just listen. "Ellie please go to makeup maybe if my team do yours it will make you relax a little and not think about it." She told me. Her tone was very harsh and I didn't want to.

I refused and she rolled her eyes, now evidently frustrated. I went to walk away to the vip tent with Travis but Taylor grabbed me and took me away to a quiet room. She told me to sit down on a sofa the sat beside me also.

"What's going on, why aren't you going on? The later you leave this the more you'll stress out because you have less time to prepare." She told me and I just got up to walk away. I didn't want to talk, I just didn't want to work for her anymore.

As I began to leave I felt her grab me again. That's when I retaliated. "LEAVE ME ALONE I'M NOT DOING IT AND YOU CAN'T FORCE ME TO!" I screamed, running off to the vip area where Travis was. I watched as fans grouped onto the floor trading bracelets. Travis must have noticed I had been upset because he immediately hugged me and found a chair for me to sit on by him.

"I don't want to do it Travis," I whispered as he held me tightly in an embrace. He nodded and just stayed silent. He understood that's the main thing. Taylor came onto stage eventually and the crown was deathening, she looked as though she had been crying and I could tell that she looked stressed.

I felt bad immediately but at the same time she shouldn't have hired me, I can't do that job it's too much. I watched almost the whole show and as we got close to the end Travis placed a hand on my back. "Why don't you go on just for karma, you've got just about enough time to go get changed and on stage." He told me.

I hesitated a little but I could see Taylor was looking down and Travis was quite hopeful. He wanted to cheer up and me going on was the only thing that could possibly help. I nodded a little and made my way backstage putting on my karma outfit and getting ready backstage. Just as I made my way to watch the midnights era from behind the stage I ran into Taylor who was mid costume change.

"So now you want to go on?" She asked and I nodded a little. Suddenly my feet looked more interesting than anything going on around me and they were all I could look at. She sighed extra loud before starting to head to the stage.

"There's no point go and wait with Travis." She told me, instructing someone to lead me over to the tent again. I looked down and just began sobbing. I wanted to go on now. I just completely ignored what anyone said and made my way to where I needed to be. Eventually we made it to karma and I made my way on stage.

I did the whole song and as we came off I ran to Travis unable to breathe and panicking. I didn't want Taylor to yell at me for going and I really didn't need her to start screaming at me. I just don't want to go home. I could barely hold myself up. I needed to sit down and breathe but I couldn't. Travis thankfully grabbed onto me and helped le to the floor where he knelt down beside me.

The other dancers all laughed watching the state I was in, shouting insults about my poor performance and how I let everyone down. I shouldn't have gone on I should have just gone home. "Ta-Tay..lor is going t-to... to kill me." I stuttered between sobs and deep breaths. Trying my best to calm myself.

Why does Taylor hate me the one time I need her.

A few of the nicer dancers that had gotten quite close to Taylor gathered around me, prompting me to take deep breaths and reassuring me that I was okay. I heard muffled voices asking for Taylor but I didn't want her. Not at all. Before I knew it I heard Taylor trying to get past them. "Let me get to her so I can help!" She yelled.

"Don't let her." I whispered as I shuffled close to Travis, trying my best to hide from Tay. I felt Travis wrap a protective arm around me while I continued to break down and gasp for air. I had never had a panic attack this bad before.

Soon enough I felt Taylor's presence by my side and her arm placed on my back. I tensed so quickly. My parents would say horrible things to me and make me feel guilty for things I hadn't even done or for feeling upset about someone then when I got upset pretend to care. I don't like that. That's what it felt like Taylor was doing.

She made me feel terrible for being too anxious to go on stage then now was acting all sweet and confused as to why I was so upset. I moved closer to Travis, seeking more comfort just as a small child would after a nightmare. Thankfully he held onto me tighter. Eventually I calmed and turned to Taylor who hadn't said a word but had gently rubbed my back the whole time.

"What's going on honey?" She asked me gently as she reached out for my hand. Part of me hated her but at the same time I needed comfort. I needed her to show she cared about me. I hesitantly looked at her and drew my hand away. I watched her face drop.

We made our way back to Taylor's and I took myself straight to my room, packing as much as I could up while trying to book a flight home. As much as I wanted to stay with Taylor I knew how much I wasn't wanted and how much she hated me now. I was just there to fill a space in the formation and she never cared.

Nothing she could say would stop me going home now. Not even how awful the relationship u had with my parents could stop me. I needed to get away now.

A/N

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