Her Merman - Her Captive.

9

I was slowly falling for Scarlet, I know damn well I should not, shes my captive and I can't fall for someone like that unless I have stockholm syndrome.

I mean it would make sense if I have a stockholm syndrome since I have been feeling strange things for her, and if I end up falling in love with her then fuck, I failed my mission, my secrets, and everything, I'd probably kneel down before her if she told me too.

I need to get out of here, fast and soon. But I just can't.

I fucking hate how she makes me crawl back to her like a lost puppy, my mind changing whenever I think I can leave her just for me to come back to her, I don't know how I'm going to face her considering she's my fucking captivator.

I need to snap out of this, out of it. I can't keep up with this mission if I end up falling in love with her, I know I probably have stockholm syndrome.

It probably is a mental illness so once I finish this I need to see a fucking therapist, but I can't get myself to leave her.

The way she has control over me, the amount of control she has over me is so fucking hot.

'I don't know how I can face somebody like her, I know its unhealthy to like your captivator, I know its a mental illness, focus on your mission, do this, do that.' is what I kept repeating in my head, did it work? Fuck no.

She can control me in any way, from, place, area, mind, she can do fucking anything to me and I'd enjoy it, I hate it so much, but I crave it at the same time.

It was my mission to find someone, I want her.

I want her to be my someone.

'Its unhealthy, a mental illness, something I should avoid.' is what I kept repeating in my head, but it all disappears whenever I think of her, as my wife.

Her in a wedding dress, her wearing my ring, her holding my hand, her saying, shouting, screaming, whispering, mumbling my name when she's happy, sad, angry, annoyed. It does not even matter, it sounds like a beautiful melody I can never be able to stop loving no matter how she says my name.

Her smile, her beautiful eyes, her wavy hair, the way she sways her hips when she walks.

Fuck, I need to stop thinking of her.

But I can't bring myself to.

I glanced up to see her sitting infront of me, holding a cigar as she huffed, smoke leaving her mouth as I felt the scent of smoke fill my lungs, I watched as she smoked before getting up and disposing her cigar.

My lips watered for some fucking reason, I need to control myself but I don't know how.

I watched her sway her hips as she walks back to her seat and sat down before doing her work.

I could hear my heart beating, and I knew she probably could also hear it.

Thud.

Thud.

Thud.

Yeah, she could definitely hear it and was just quiet or something, I'm not sure but I'd be surprised if she wasn't able to hear it.

'Stick to you're mission, stick to you're mission.' I repeated in my head, again and again but nothing worked. I was intoxicated by her.

She was like the oxygen I needed, without her I can't survive.

She was like the light to my dark.

She was like the ring to my finger.

She was everything to me.

I didn't care about anything, I just needed her.

But I still need to stop this delusional behavior, it wasn't healthy especially when she was my captivator.

But I couldn't stop, I couldn't tear myself away. I could not find a way to do anything without needing her, I felt like a fucking puppy, as if I needed her for survival, when I tried to find ways I'd always stay like a puppy, fuck, I'd probably follow anything she'd say like a puppy.

I don't know how I can stay without her, she captured me and made me her captive, I can sense she probably felt something for me too considering the way she looked at me, the way she wouldn't say anything when I cuddled with her every night, the way she'd look at me when I eat, the way she would always come to cuddle me every night.

I didn't know how to tell her, I didn't want to loose her.

I wanted her to be mine, mine to use, mine to break, mine to cherish, mine to mark, mine, I just want her to be mine and mine only.

I know I was possessive as fuck over this captivator, but once I find my way out I will come back, and make her sign a contract to be mine in marriage, my wife. 

She'd probably decline tho, so I need to gain her trust, which I think I did since I've been keeping low, so far she does not know what's coming for her.

I have a whole plan to use against her, this plan will make her sign the marriage contract.

But I know damn well that if I were to do that then things would get messy, really messy.

I didn't know how I would be able to do this, considering I was too attached to her and this plan requires me to escape and come back few days later with a marriage contract.

But that would be harsh and I don't think father would like me marrying a human, it was my mission to find a wife, maybe she could be my wife.

I know we would probably have to live on the beach, but we could stay here.

It's next to the sea, its literally on the beach considering its a beach house.

Or, I could always make a small cozy little area for us in a small mountain that has a hole for a bedroom, a tiny kitchen and dining room, a small crib, curtains, and a seperate room with nothing except a bathroom just for her.

I don't know why I thought of a crib, but having that would be cute. I should just snap out of it but I could not.

I wanted her to be mine.

I just realized the mountain house would probably not be that safe if there was heavy rains, floods, or anything. 

Maybe It would be good if there was a house built but it would feel blocked, I didn't know if she has claustrophobia or not.

I thought that maybe we could have a house on a mountain that overlooks the sea, it would be our house, and it would be surrounded with a beautiful view of the sea and beach along with the city as it was located on a mountain.

I spent a lot of time with Scarlet ever since she let me roam around her house, ofcourse she was not dumb and added a bunch of locks and alarms incase I tried to escape but she told me she loved flowers.

Maybe around the house it could have flowers around the enterance and have her little garden filled with flowers?

Whatever works fine for her.

I didn't realize I was staring, thinking, and day dreaming for so long to the point that Scarlet was no where to be seen, the blinds were closed and the door was closed.

I turned to the other side of the bed to look at the door just to see Scarlet sitting on her side, eating some candy before putting it away and returning the room.

I guess she likes eating candy before bed.

I watched as she entered the blanket and moved one of her pillows to the edge of the bed while scooting the other beside mine.

We were close I guess, maybe friends? But we always cuddled ever since she let me free from that bathroom where she made me stay in for weeks.

Honestly I was surprised she accepted it, but I'm not saying anything.

I watched as she put herself between my hands before nuzzling into my chest and sleeping.

My heart beating as I'm pretty sure she could hear it considering she was resting her head on my chest while hugging me.

Thud.

Thud.

Thud.

I went and pressed the switch as the lights blacked out, the room being pitch dark before going into the covers and wrapping my arms around her as I felt one of her legs go around my tail.

I let out a small hum before nuzzling my face into her hair, pulling her close before shutting my eyes, some time passed as I took in the scent of her shampoo before I could hear her soft snores.

I slowly fluttered my eyes shut before falling asleep.