ODDS OF LOVE: SEASON SEVEN

Episode 38

DuBuis sighed and ran his hands down his handsome dark skinned face. " God no. What kind of a person do you think I am? Huh ? How could you think I blamed you ? I'm mad , least I was , about you not listening about going to the store. And fighting over a ring. You didn't value your own life. I don't care about the ring. I care about you. I love you. I adore you. You are my best friend and my soulmate. Yeah that's cheesy I know. You were not responsible for the shooting though. The shooter was. You were not responsible for being raped. Either time. I wish you had told me back in college though. The whole truth. "

" Why? ," Spencer asked. " So you could beat Skip ?"

" No. I wouldn't have just beat him. I would have killed him. I would have killed anyone who dared to hurt you. I didn't want you going out with him anyway. " His voice dropped lower than before. " I didn't want you going out with anyone. "

Spencer said softly," I just went out with him back then because you went out on your own date. Because I felt like I had no chance with you at all. I.... I still feel like I have no chance with you. I don't understand what you see in me. You could have any man you want. Why me ? "

DuBuis stood up and walked over to him. He knelt beside the chair and reached out to stroke at his face. At the touch of his husband's hand Spencer let his eyes flutter closed. " I'm not that great. Except to you.  Thank God. And you are so much more than you think you are. You are beautiful. I love your hair, your eyes, your body, your laugh, your mind, how you think and see the world. You fit me. You fit me so well. You left me alone and I felt like a part of me was missing. You are the only man I want. Without you I am so lost. I love you. Please come back. "

A tear slid down Spencer's cheek. He remained silent.

Lynn asked," And how do you feel about what DuBuis just said, Spencer? Do you want to return home? "

Spencer reopened his eyes and looked directly into his husband's eyes. " I want to come back home. I love you. I miss you. I'll come back if you agree to certain conditions."

" Anything. What are they, Genius? "

Spencer paused before speaking. " I want us to do counseling together with Lynn. "

" Ok. No problem. "

" And I want..... I want.... us to have sex.  I don't want that man to be my only lover. I want to have a real marriage. "

DuBuis sighed deeply. " No. "