flames of passion (Book 1 Series 1)

Chapter 17 Jackson

On my way home my thoughts are all over the place. I think back at the talk we just had and the way she almost gave me hope but at the same time my heart sinks thinking about how she just walked off like that. I take a deep breath trying to keep it cool when in reality I just want to go back and kiss her to show you how much I really do love her. 

I get home and see her car in the parking lot and look at my watch to check the time. She should be done with your interview by now. and since you're home I assume it didn't go well. I close my eyes and let out a breath before gathering all my confidence and walking up to the door. 

I knock on her door after an hour and rub my sweaty hands on my pants. I'm incredibly nervous since I don't know how she's going to react. I take a deep breath and just hope for the best. I bite my lip. I don't know if she's ignoring me or have music blasting in her earbuds and just don't hear me. I knock again and wait for a reply. 

"she came home then she went out again." A random guy says.  I furrow my brows and turn to the stranger.

"what do you mean she went out again? where did she go?"

"I don't know but she didn't go in her car" The stranger shrugs. I huff and thank the stranger. I don't know what to do now... if you didn't leave in your car... where could she have gone? I pull out my phone and dial her number. I hope she picks up.

'The user your calling is unavailable.' I groan in frustration then put the phone back into my pocket before walking over to my apartment and sit down on the coach. I lay my head back and let out a frustrated sigh. I don't know what to do next and I hate just sitting here waiting.

I freeze on the couch, surprised to hear the knock on the door. I stay still for a few seconds to convince myself it wasn't all in my mind until I hear another knock. I jump off the couch and almost run to the door. I take a deep breath and then slowly open the door.

"you ruined my interview!"

"what do you mean I ruined your interview?"

"I've cried tears of gold for you!" I raise my eyebrows and my heart breaks when I hear her say that. I didn't know she cried. I know she probably wont believe me but I cried for her too. I want to reach out and touch her but I stop myself, afraid she might take it the wrong way.

"please come in... don't yell on the hallway." 

"you said you loved me earlier and it has been running through my mind since, it appears I love you too."  I shut the door behind her and my eyes widen slightly when I hear her say that she loves me. I look at her and want to say so many things but I don't know what to say. my heart begins to race as she stares at me and I feel the familiar butterflies in my stomach, a feeling I haven't felt in the past few weeks due to my breakup depression. 

"I.... I thought you hated me..."

"I never did, well maybe you were annoying at times but I never HATED you." I almost smile from her comment about me being annoying. I like the playful banter we always had. I slowly take a step closer.

"so... you still love me?" 

"always." she smashes her lips against mine.

 I freeze for a second when she suddenly kisses me. my eyes widen slightly until I close them, melt into it and start kissing her back. I immediately wrap my arms around her and pull her as close as possible. I don't want to let go of her ever again.

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I wake up and I feel her in my arms, still in deep sleep. I turn my head to look at her and cant help but smile. I remember the kiss from yesterday and I just thank god for giving me a second chance with her. I stay completely still, not wanting to wake her up and enjoying feeling of her body against mine.