Poly Family

28

Megan's POV:

Two weeks passed and it was a week and some days before Christmas and I was feeling optimistic. Blue went back to Solange's so she could help her through her grief and anger. Solange was a therapist and herbalist and was definitely prepared to handle her plus knowing the backstory helped a lot. Even within two weeks, we could see a difference. Bey had been seeing her everyday along with Padre' to stay present and offer support and talk. Blue even felt okay enough to talk to all of us last night and offered Nicki an apology. Saying she was just stressed about colleges and Tariq's death just sent her into a spiral. Nicki accepted but I could tell she still had a guard up. Truthfully, she'd been really quiet and distant with all of us. She'd taken to sleeping in another room even, saying our bed was hurting her back and she was being kept up my snoring.

This afternoon, I needed to go to the gym to grab something and since I couldn't leave Nicki alone, I took her. She didn't even complain as we went in and just followed me, holding my hand. I felt bad and after grabbing what I needed took her to my personal rooms. I had one of the trainers put up the heavy bag and I helped Nicki put on gloves.

"What are you doing?" Nicki asked quietly.

"I want you to hit the bag, you need to let that pent up stress, worry, and fear out."

"I'm fine."

"You're not, you didn't even blink when I pulled up in the parking lot. Now, make a fist and just punch the bag, I'll hold it place okay?"

"...Okay."

Nicki started to hit the bag and soon increased the speed until she was venting and hitting the bag.

"I hate...Tariq! I hate what he did to me! To my Blue-bear. I hate that I didn't stab his ass at that dinner table! I hate that he wanted to hurt my Honeybun, that he hated my family and way of life! That every night I have nightmares that he's hurting me or my children or tearing my family apart! I hate that I was so weak! I hate that I didn't fight back Megan, I hate myself."

I let the bag go and grabbed Nicki up into a hug and went with her as she dropped to her knees. She sobbed into my shoulder crying for a while saying she hated herself for not seeing Tariq for who he was and not making Blue realize before it was too late. We talked for a while and she calmed down and I made her promise to not blame herself anymore. She nodded and said she just wanted things to go back to normal and that she wanted Christmas with her 'babies'.

I got an idea and decided to talk to Rihanna about it when we got home. I took Nicki to my office to clean up her face and change her shirt before we left. Nicki wanted tacos so I stopped for her and we went home. At home, we were surprised to see Blue on the couch waiting along with the twins, Honey, and Normani. They were laughing and it freaked me out for moment before Blue came over and hugged me and then Nicki.

She apologized to Nicki and said that she'd keep apologizing forever if that's what it took. Beyonce and Solange came in from the kitchen and Rihanna popped in with Papabear and 4oe. She prayed over the family before saying that based on my idea we were going to the timeshare resort cabin in the mountains for Christmas. The girls excitedly talked about it and Rihanna said Tina, Carol, and Lauren were coming up for a few days as well. Nicki hugged Rihanna and Beyonce and my heart was full.

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Honey's POV:

It was barely 3 in the morning when I got up to go to the bathroom. After I decided to check on Blue. Blue was back in her room and I missed her. Blue was up, coming out of her bathroom, as well.

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah, had too much water before bed."

"Same, Padre' been concerned about our water intake and has been pushing 'night water'."

"Oh, that explains that." Blue grinned.

We sat on her bed and I hugged and spoke quietly.

"It's okay, you know? To be sad and miss Tariq."

"I've made peace with that, a lot of the love for him went away when I saw some of Ring camera footage from that rental when...he...hurt Mommy. It was sick Blue, he was smiling while he hurt her."

Blue got emotional for a second and I hugged her and she calmed down. The Moms never really said what happened to Mommy but I kind of pieced it together from what me and twins heard about it and it was really sad and upsetting. The twins took it hard but luckily, Normani helped them through it as I was just as bad crying about it that night.

"She's never going to forgive me for what I said to her. I was really mean Honey."

"Mommy loves us Blue, believe me, I've gotten smart with her and the Moms too but they always let us come back and apologize."

"You think so?"

"Yes, it'll be okay. I'll go with you if you want."

"Yes please, I won't be able to sleep if I don't."

Blue and I got up and quietly went to the Moms room but Mommy wasn't in there. We smelled something cooking so we went down to the kitchen and saw Mommy sitting at the island with a cup of soup and crackers. She was surprised to see us and asked if we wanted food. Blue got nervous and looked down but I rubbed her back and pepped her up and she started to quietly spill her guts to Mommy. Apologizing, telling her that she believed her about what happened, saying Tariq made her feel insecure, that she missed Jay and that she was struggling to commit to a college and was doubting she even wanted to go.

Mommy hugged her and calmed her down and she talked to Blue for almost an hour while eating. I made me and Blue some tea too and I was happy that Blue and Mommy were making up. After some happy tears, Blue and I rubbed Mommy's bump and felt the twins kicking, We shifted the conversation to the twins and how we needed to get ready for them as we only had 4 ½ months left. Mommy nodded saying she was looking at cribs as she gave Papabear's away years ago along with all the other baby things and that she'd have to start from scratch. We got a notepad and wrote down everything she'd need times two and Blue said she'd make a registry for some of the smaller stuff that the family could pick from, gender neutral of course along with lot of diapers and wipes.

Blue was back to her normal self as we went back to our rooms. She decided to sleep with the Moms since Mommy was still in the separate bedroom and I nodded watching her go in the room. I went back to Normani who was half awake and gave her the run down before she told me I did a good job and to sleep so we could pack in the morning. I agreed, yawning, and curled into her going to sleep.

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