Beyonce's POV:
I got an early start to the morning as I couldn't sleep much. I got dressed and went for a run before coming back to the slowly waking house. I took a shower and went into my home office to work. Honey brought me in coffee and breakfast and hugged me before speaking quietly.
"Ma, I'm sorry about Blue. Normani is okay to go home and be alone since her being here makes Blue feel some sort of way."
"Honey, it's fine. We promised Normani's parents that we'd house her until they got back besides, Normani's been a nice addition and help to the house."
"I understand. I asked Blue, this morning about if Tariq was speaking for her, echoing her feelings and she said 'Yes' and 'No' but wouldn't give any clarification. I'm sorry I can't give you more information than that."
"It's okay Honeybear, we'll handle that. I don't want you to worry about that."
Honey nodded and left, closing my door. I ate and finished just as the meeting started. The meeting went well, and I was free to do my other tasks later. I left my office and walked to the kitchen to see my Mom cleaning up breakfast dishes. I helped her and she told me she was going with Carol to the store to get some ingredients for some soups for Nicki and us. Carol came in with Rihanna from walking Papabear to school. Rihanna hugged me and left to go do an errand and soon everyone else left too.
Sitting on the couch, I was reading and sending messages and soon was joined by Nicki who was in a gray cotton maxi dress with her hair up in a large claw clip. Her bump looked so cute. She sat next to me and I wrapped my arm around her waist.
"Hey, You look so nice, feeling okay?"
"Yes and No. I'm really concerned about Blue, I don't understand why she would tell that boy all our business. Like, if she was feeling upset about stuff why not come to us? Do we not have an open door policy? We always talk, so why not now? And the sick part of all of it, was...he wasn't wrong. We wouldn't let him lay up with her like we let Normani. We drilled the safe sex talked into the twins and we wouldn't let them do that."
"I rationalized it a lot last night, We can't make the girls talk to us, we can only provide the spaces and time for them too. We aren't hypocrites, the twin's boyfriends have been here before but of course we supervised it because like it or not, they can get pregnant. Normani can't get Honey pregnant. But if the twins got pregnant or Blue you know that all that would fall on us. We'd have to take care of them and a baby if they had one. Even as adults, they'd need us so imagine a teenager with no real money or job? So, like it or not, boyfriends can be around but laying up in beds is a no go. Blue is 18 and her going to his house and laying up in his bed, we can't stop. We can only hope that birth control will work and that she'll be smart. Blue isn't dumb and I'm sure she'll make the right decision in the end but she's still upset over her and Jay Cinco breaking up so I feel like Tariq is a rebound."
"I liked Jay, I felt so bad she cried so much about their spilt. I'm scared he's going to get her pregnant on purpose. I don't want Blue to ruin her future but then again, I got into our relationship at her age."
"We also were friends before we really locked in. You also grew within our relationship."
"I just...I get talking to your spouse about things in your life but she told that boy like our whole life history and the pregnancy remarks...that hurt."
Nicki started to cry but caught herself and wiped her tears away. I reached over and put my hand over hers that was holding her bump.
"I did say Papabear was the last baby. I feel so bad I didn't ask the kids if they would be okay with another sibling. Plus them knowing about the loss didn't help, now they have to deal with that along with the fact that it's twins if I don't lose them too. Everyone talking negatively about this pregnancy doesn't make me feel real optimistic about even making it another day let alone another 5 months."
