Poly Family

45

Honey's POV:

In the sprinter on the way to competition, Padre' drove and brought us breakfast before everyone went to sleep except for me and Padre' which gave us time to talk. Luckily for me, I was sitting right behind her so I just leaned over the center counsel and talked.

"Padre', are you happy me and Blue are going to college?"

"Yes, I'm proud of my girls. Are you okay?"

"Not really. I want to go to college but I'm nervous. I'm worried that I can't handle the course load and I still haven't really picked a major that I like."

"You don't want to do business and photography?"

"I don't know."

"Well, if you do business, you can work for anyone of us. If you do photography, you can start your own photography business. Wedding pictures and baby pictures are always needed."

"I know but my anxiety...gets so bad and I hate it. I literally had to calm myself just getting ready this morning because I was worked up thinking I was going to leave something at home. It's gotten so bad and I don't want to burden Normani with it too much longer."

"I've noticed your anxiety has been bad lately, I know it's correlated to Skai, Mommy, the triplets, school, and just life in general. You've been through a lot in less than 6 months Pooh. I was going to tell Mama to take you back to the Doctor to see if they can adjust your medication but I really think you'd benefit from the CBD drops that Solange has because I really don't like you guys taking medication if you don't have too. Honey, you also stress your own self out Pooh. Worry about G & G is a job in its self." Padre' said raking her nails through my hair.

"I know, them fast tail heffas had me sick thinking one of them was pregnant. I don't like Darryl for Gia at all, he's arrogant."

"I know, Pooh. But Gia and Giselle have me to be on their ass for now on so you don't worry about that. If you want to take a light course load for a year until you get used to college you can Pooh. You also can commute if you want or take online classes. I think you're stressing about us having to take care of the new baby twins."

"A little, you guys have been working more since the days of Papabear being a baby and I don't want Mommy by herself."

"She won't be Pooh, we have a schedule and Grandma, Nana, and Mamo are ready to be at the house helping. Mommy will be fine."

"Hmmm...you think I should reach out to Skai? I can't get over what happened and I felt bad and sick when I think of it."

"I would suggest that you don't because it's not helping your mental health when you do talk. She's manipulative and abusive Pooh. She's not good for you."

"I know...I know. Do you like Normani for me?"

"I do. I love Normani, she's like my little daughter in law." Padre' grinned.

"I love Normani so much, it's why I don't want to trauma dump on her. I don't want her to run off. Skai fucked me up so bad, it's been crazy trying to shield 'Mani from the effects. I would be really panicking if Normani left me over that." I reply getting upset.

Warm tears streamed my cheek and Padre' wiped some away before I sat up and got a tissue. I gathered myself but couldn't stop crying. Thankfully, we were at the hotel where the competition was and our hotel suites. Padre' parked and I got out quickly to fix my face in the bathroom. I was drying my eyes as Mommy rushed in and headed to a stall but stopped when she saw. She came over holding her bump and rubbed my cheek.