REDAMANCY - Love's Timeless Path

4th Note

I bang into the wall of the elevator. Several people who were with me stared at me with strange looks. I felt like I could bang my head over and over again if I remembered what happened last night. I suddenly got up and left Haira on the sofa; it felt really stupid. I could still picture her bewildered expression before finally picking up the phone call from Pradipta informing her that it turned out they had to have a Zoom meeting last night. And I was the one who rushed home because I was annoyed.

My eyes looked at my phone to check how many messages Haira had sent me that I still hadn't responded to. Not because I was trying to shut her up, but because I didn't know how to answer.

Queen

Babe, why didn't you say goodbye when you went home last night?

Did I do something wrong?

08.05

Queen

Have you gone to the hospital?

It's Semanggi today, right?

09.10

Queen

It looks like you're busy; please let me know if you are free.

I love you.

09.48

Dude! I really want to reply to her chat and say that I love her too. But what should I say to her first question? That I got jealous over Pradipta?

I staggered out of the elevator and made my way to my room. Greeting fellow doctors and nurses who passed me. I hope to meet Jagad quickly so he can scold me because I was too stupid.

But how? I was jealous. That makes sense, doesn't it? Even for couples who had been dating for ten years. Papa Mama, who had been married for a long time, sometimes still got jealous. I grumbled to myself, trying to find a defense for my stupid attitude last night.

I threw my bag onto the chair. My schedule was only at eleven o'clock, but I felt like I wanted to get to the hospital quickly so that my mind wasn't filled with stupid things.

"Jen."

I raised my face and looked at the door, which showed Jagad standing there.

"Hah?" I replied nonchalantly before putting on my snelli.

"Did you fight with Haira?"

I suddenly fell silent where I stood. Couldn't answer the question.

"Why? Haira even asked me why you didn't reply to her chat."

I snorted harshly before dropping my body onto the sofa. "I don't know; I'm just an idiot."

"Yes indeed," Jagad answered carelessly while handing me a bottle of mineral water. "What happened?"

I rubbed my face roughly before ruffling the hair I had worked so hard to style this morning.

"It's normal for me to be jealous of people, right?"

Jagad looked at me strangely. "Yeah, that's natural, I think." He answered hesitantly, unsure of his own answer because he didn't understand where my words were going. "Who are you jealous of?"

"Pradipta." I answered without hesitation, my response caused Jagad to look at me even more bizarrely.

"So this is the reason you asked me about Pradipta yesterday?"

I closed my mouth. Smothered it with my own hand. "His existence bothers me, Gad."

Jagad nodded, trying to understand. "It's true that Dipta spends more time with Haira, especially now that the foundation has settled down. It makes sense that Haira would see Dipta more frequently given how often she visits her father's office."