Catch Flights Not Feelings

Twelve

Leah POV
The last week was a whirlwind of emotions, I couldn't even leave my bed, I was broken. How could she just leave? I kept thinking she would walk through the door any second but she never did. And that hurt. Beth came to check on me every day but nothing worked, no matter how hard she tried, I was too deep into my thoughts,

Today everyone is called into training, I didn't even know if I'd manage. But I try. I get up and for the first time in seven days I get in the shower. I change and get in my car for training with soaking wet hair. As I pull up outside Colney I see all the girls talking, the moment I step foot out the car they all go silent. I walk straight past them and inside, I see Kyra sat in the changing rooms, she looked defeated. I sit down and we couldn't even smile. I sit there and tears prick my eyes as all her stuff was still in her locker. I go over to it and run my fingers over her shirt. I see Kyra looking at me and she says "she meant a lot didn't she?"
I nod my head "yeah" I say
"I don't even know how to stop thinking about her" Kyra admits
"Me neither" I say
The silence surrounded us again and a cacophony of talking echoed round as some of the girls walk in.

I sit back down and Kelly walks in. "Girls, as some of you already know and I'm sure it's spread throughout the team. But we've been informed that Indiana Rhodes passed away last week." I zone out of the rest of what she says, those words cut deep. During her speech I leave the room, I couldn't deal with the heaviness that weighed on my shoulders. I sit down on the sofa and after a bit Kim walks out. She sits next to me and says "I know it's hard"
"No you don't Kim, she- she meant everything to me" I state and feel tears roll down my cheek.
"She's still in my dreams" I say
"I even think she's just gonna walk through the door at some point but she never does!" I shout and stand up. Now stood in front of her hysterically crying whilst I list off everything I missed about her.

I look to the door and I see her. I run towards her but as I run and try to go into her arms, I discovered my arms were around myself and she wasn't ever there, I turn round and all the girls stared at me in sadness. My face breaks and my legs stop, I slouch down onto the floor and Beth runs towards me hugging me tight.

As I get home from Beth dropping me off I reach for my phone.

I was hoping for anything, maybe even a message that she was somehow still, out there.

But I never got the message,

Hey Inds, it's me. I know you're not coming home and I don't even know what to say. Other than I fucking miss you, more than normal. And I don't even know how to explain how hurt I am, not at you but also at you. I don't even know what to do without you. I just need you and that's all I've ever needed. You lit me up when I was in a dark place, and now I don't even have that fire anymore xx

For the passing weeks I've kept messaging her random messages explaining my feelings. But I knew she was never coming back.

Sorry guys, but that's the end. I did a short story because I've had a lot of exams lately and I've just not been able to keep updating, but I'll be working on a new story soon I promise ❤️