Love, lust and crazy

Gone

We found Mia's room after a while . When Joe and I arrived, she was already in the surgery . Melissa and Drake where in the waiting room right in front of where Mia was .The situation was a mess, and hell we didn't know it was about to get even worse . The doctors and nurses didn't speak to me , neither did Melissa , she was crying over the last piece of happiness that was left in her daily reality , her daughter and my dearest friend. She was losing her temper and she had to . How could a person be patient ? How could we find patience in circumstances like these ? I tried my best to find a piece of serenity in that doomed room, and when i did i used it all to keep Melissa strong , i was inventing stories about how Mia was optimist , the truth is that she wasn't , but i wanted to believe she will be fine , eventhough somehow i knew she won't . I hid my hideous and unpleasent thoughts away ; in another galaxy and i wished they can go far than that . I wanted so bad to be a hope spreader but i needed a hope shot more than anyone around, Melissa got her hope from God and her mother's heart, Drake got it from how little he knew about Mia , even if they are good friends . I glanced at Joe 's hand in mine , then to his perfect face , trying to drink a little of his beauty. He came close to me , and he slided his nose on mine after kissing the top of my head . I smiled a very sad smile .

" Are you being strong , even if it hurts so much love ?" He said quitley .

" It hurts." I said with my trembling lips , and my eyes full of tears .

" Talk to me Serena ."

At this words , i felt like he knew Mia , like he was there for my whole life . I looked at him , his eyes were full of concern . I skiped all my boundaries and I let all my heart out saying :"Mia is my unbiological sister , she is here when i need her , she is a part of my life since always . I need my best girl here , my heart is filled with things , she doesn't know yet . I want her to meet you , I want her to let advises rain on me like i am in some tip book . I want her to call me nerd and to drag me from my hair to every single party . I am sorry but do you understand Joe ".

" How can I not ? You make every word held a charge of sens and meanings , you don't know how lovely you are right now . I hope Mia will be back Se ."

" Nobody said it was easy , she always warned she will be missed , we just ignored her words because she was always there."

" Can I tell you something ? "

"Yes Joe anything ." I said laughing .

" Look at me , this is our start , the beginning of us . You are now honest and strong , it's not the right timing , but can i ask you to stay like this forever ?"

"Yes , it's not the time nor it's the good place , but if i do promise you that i will remain the same forever , can i ask not to break my heart , because it will be broken in case ....". I start crying after cuting my sentense . Joe held me in both arms immediately . "Mia will be fine" He said .
I stayed in his arms what it seems like eternity. Hoping that the only sister i have will walk through the door somehow , telling us (why are you afraid people ?Ha !! You love me right , Ooooh Serena who is the hot stuff next to you ) .
I checked Joe's arm-watch and it was 6:00 , time really went fast , and i guess i fell asleep on Joe's hard chest . " Bright and shine sleepy head ". He said softly in my ear . I smiled then turned to find mom and dad around . My mother stood up , and i was quickly out of his arms , she said "we met Joe , he is great , i am glad you arrive here safe ."  Then she gave me a rough time for not waking her up when i received the news about Mia .
" Where is Mia ?" I said loudly
"They don't let us see her yet " dad replied .

"Isn't she out yet ? " i asked my parents , with wide open eyes .

"No, not yet darling , she is under observation , that's what her doctor said ." My mother answered .

I looked across the room , and saw Melissa sitting in the corner sad , she was like an empty , dry body . She must be tired from crying so much . No one of us can feel the state of mind she was in . Mothers are amazing , and i can't find words to use for paying them all the noble care they hold for us . I was stuck in my thoughts like always , when Joe came along with the doctor , Why was the doctor speaking with him out of us all ? 

" Mr.Roberts , I'll go check on her case now , i didn't know i am sorry ." The doctor said .

"Okay , we are waiting then ." Joe replied in a cold way . 

So , aside from rich , i guess Joe was well known by his last name ( Roberts ) . In a few minutes , the doctor came back with a blank face and a slow walk , his expression turned blue each step he made towards us . I felt that he was the satan , or worse . My mind starts giving him a red skin and a black tail . My heart twists in a sudden . I was sinking in an ocean of darkness , I felt nothing but my father 's hand helding mine , he must've understand before the doomed words were spoken to Melissa . 

" To skies we all belong , be strong , she won't be with you , not anymore ."

Melissa let go a soul shaking scream full of pure pain , then she passed out . I took a seat since my feet could not keep me still anymore . The biggest part of me still waiting for Mia to get out of the room , i was stuck in the past a bit , i was shocked . I wanted to cry like others , even Joe let go a tear from his perfect eye , that tear that i envy so much for slinding down his cheek , untill his three days beard, i simply couldn't , accepting Mia's death was forbidden for my mind . I closed my eyes and went down in a deep sleep hoping that Mia would take me to her , or join me here . Just before sleeping , i heard ( cause of death : suicide ) .