Love, lust and crazy

Inner strenght requested /Letter n°2

Terrific , now Mia wants me to prove to myself that i am confident and strong enough to express my feelings ( true feelings ) infront of a bunch of strangers . Can my dearest friend gets any weirder ? Guess what she left this in her will letters if i can describe them that way . So, technically I can't refuse doing this insane but very important thing for both of us . Whithout denial i think that she only wants my good in a strange way like always . Up to find the opportunity now . Maybe , she was just imagining and maybe i have no strenght's drop in my body . 

It was a very disturbing monday . I mean you know mondays , but at some point we have to admit that it's our life that sucks and not necessery mondays . So, after it , i had a long night of sleep because i was really exhausted and i felt that it's been ages i haven't got a chance to rest . Waking up , it's always the same routine . I took a shower and put my skinny jeans and a white T-shirt with a pink denim jacket on with a peach gloss and mascara , I let my hair slide in a long high pony tail . My long silver infinity neckless was Mia's gift for me last christmas . "To infinity and beyond , I love you ." She said .

I was having lunch with lilly , when a guy approched us .

"Hello Miss ( to me ) , and hello beauty (to lilly )" . Oh my God , Lilly was now an exact tomato , thanks God i am not a special case .

"Hi ." We both said , but Lilly's voice was lower than mine .

" I am Sam from free talk club , we will start this evening by eight . If you would like to join us , we will be so happy and i will be thrilled ( Looking to lilly )". Before i really think about it i said :" We're in ."

" Okay , see you then ." And he was on his way , glancing at us from upon his shoulder , he was cute with a black silky hair and wide brown eyes .

" You didn't just say that Se ."

" Don't be silly Liliana , i am sure you will thank me later . I am off now to see Joe , pick me up at seven. No hate okay . " 

Maybe Mia's wishes will became true after all , eventhough Lilly was not very comfortable but i know a good couple when i see it , and Sam is the one for her . God, I feel rebuilt .

Finishing with todays lessons in what seemed like ages , I was ready to meet Joseph . He has been very supportive . Don't you think that a moment passed without me recalling Mia's old presence next to me , I miss her with every heart beat but since our last fight , i decided that i am hurting my boyfriend by showing him how hurt i am . So, let me live that way , sad but at least loved back .

I met Joe at the parking lot , and he was wearing his sunny smile that made me feel blessed every time i saw him . Why me between all the girls he can get so easily ? I didn't want to doubt things , because i trusted him and i believed in us .

" Hello beautiful ."

" Hi , you look good yourself ."

" Just good ."

" Fantastic baby ." 

He pecked my lips briefly before he asked me about the day . I talked to him about ( The free talk club). I was happy that he agreed, not that i need his approval but i just feel safe asking him , that way i know he had an eye on me . 

I was home at five , my folks were not home yet , neither was Oscar . They left me a small note hanged from the keys holder . (" Baby , we are at the supermarket , we will be late . Left a note to update if you wanna go out . Love you ."). Since I was going to spend the night at Joe's , I was thrilled since lying on a paper was much easier . I changed my clothes , putting on my short creamy dress, my black coat and my short boots . It was already half past six when i was downstairs so Lilly was going to be here in any minute, I picked up a vanilla cookie and orange juice while i was texting Joe about tonight . He is pervert sometimes , but anyway i do like the spicy flavour he adds to our relationship .