Beautiful Trauma ~Steve Rogers Love Story~

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I walked out of dads personal lab with dad right behind me we were talking about his newest suit. It was a nice to hang out with dad for a bit get to know him a little bit better. We walked along the hallway going towards the kitchen to get lunch dad was seemed happy just to talk. We reached the kitchen a few minutes later laughing a little. I went to the pantry grabbing a can of Chef Boyardee ravioli then went back into the main area of the kitchen. I grabbed a pot after opening the can pouring the contents of the can into the pot. I warmed up the ravioli putting in a bowl after it was warmed up. I grabbed a spoon then went and sat down at the table to eat. Dad sat down next to me a few minutes later with his own food. We talked as we ate our lunches talking about the suit. We finished our lunch thirty minutes later which led to dad being called into the company building in the city so he left and I went to see if Wanda was free. When I couldn't find her I asked Friday where she was and she told me that Wanda was on a mission and won't be back for a few days. I sighed deciding to go hide out in the library but I was cut off by Steve who needed to talk to me. He asked me to follow him into the meeting room so I did. When we got to the meeting room Sam and Bucky were there too.

I asked why they needed to talk to me Sam answered "we found out the base you were held at is active again." I shrugged saying I had nothing to do with it "we aren't saying that we just want to know a few things about the place" Steve spoke next. I looked at the computer screen seeing different pictures of the base that they have.

"All I know it's a big base and the only area I knew was the area I was kept in that's all." They looked at each other before looking back at me I have feeling that they want to know a little more than that "and the labs they took me to was just a hallway away so there's that." I looked between the three of them before Steve spoke again "is there anything in the area you were kept in that stood out to you?" I shook my head saying no not really I didn't really pay much attention I just wanted to keep to myself. "Well if you remember anything just let us know okay?" I nodded my head okay then asked if I was allowed to leave and they said yeah I can go so I left. All I can say is what a great meeting and my god when I was walking to the meeting room with Steve I couldn't help but I check him out which I found weird but still he's damn cute. I walked towards my room to get changed into gym clothes.

After I was done changing I went to the training room seeing no one was in here so I wrapped my hands before I started punching one of the punching bags. I kept punching letting myself think about a lot of things. It wasn't long until I wasn't alone anymore because a voice came out of nowhere and it certainly didn't sound like Friday "you know you let your thoughts win they'll eat you inside out?" I stopped punching the bag looking the direction the voice was coming from. I saw Steve standing there dressed to train as well. "I know but I do it anyway" I told him then I started punching the bag again not caring if he was here. I heard him sigh before he went to a different punching bag. I stopped punching to look at him seeing he was wrapping his hands. I shook my head a little before I started punching again just taking in what Steve said and it was said to me over and over again don't let the horrible things you did when you were with Hydra it wasn't you it was all Hydra. I stopped punching again wiping the tears that fell from my eyes then I went to unwrap my hands trying to hold back sobs. I threw the wrapping from my hands into the trash bin and stood there for a minute wiping tears from my eyes again. "Are you okay?" I heard Steve ask so I said I was fine but my voice wavered from trying to hold back the tears and the sobs.

"Do you want to talk?" I shook my head no telling him I'll be fine "I'm just gonna go get some fresh air or something" I told him quickly leaving after the words left my mouth. I let the intrusive thoughts win again even though it's been a year I'm still having trouble with coming to terms that I was no longer with Hydra and nothing I did when I was under their control was my fault it's their fault. I managed to make it to my room quickly before the sobs and the tears escaped. I closed my door behind me leaning against the door then sliding down onto my butt letting it all go. I heard Friday speak up asking if I wanted her to contact my dad and Pepper. In between sobs I managed to let out a yes then Friday said contacting dad and Ms Potts. I cried my eyes out until I heard knocking on my bedroom door and dad trying to speak through it asking me to let him in. I managed to make myself get up and open the door. Dad came in asking what happened as I sat down on the bed "I don't know" was all I told him. He sat down next to me on the bed "I was in the training room punching a punching bag" I started gasping a little dad looked at me worried written on his face.