Loss of innocence

am i trusting

I had no idea what Jerald had meant. Why was he being so nice? All the other girls hated me and Mellisa now. They thought we didn't deserve to go "bugging" with Jerald when we were just newbies. Me and Mellisa prepared to go out. We put on the most conservative clothes in our size.

"Ready girls," Jerald asked peeking in the room.

"Umm, yeah I think so," I replied.

He led us out of the B wing for the first time in a week. Instead of riding in his black van like the first time. We rode in his dark blue mustang. We arrived at a mall . he took us inside and let us pick out our own clothes. I kept mine conservative and warm. I did not want people seeing me as sale for pleasure. Or anyone seeing my ribcage tiny stomache and used and tired features. I think Mellisa was going for the same. She baught a turtle neck and loose fitting jeans. Right before we were about to get in the checkout line Jerald came over to me almost skipping.

"I found this on the clearence rack, its so you don't have to carry your *lady neccesities* in your back pocket," Jerald said handing me a blue and pink clutch purse. I don't know why but I felt like I needed to big him. I needed to snap out of it! No trusting! He had a twinkle in his eyes when he saw me smile and take the purse.

when we got back I was really proud of myself I actually ate.

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