Save Me From Myself \\ ℕ𝕒𝕥𝕤𝕦

When Sacrificing For The Sake of Others

 Mara's P.O.V

     The others went inside whereas I stayed outside by myself. Gajeel was with Levy and I'm sure Natsu was trying to break the shield. I exhale in contemplation, staring at the lightning Lacrima. I could always just use the spell again, just aim for more this time. It'll hurt, at least then the people will be safe. But I can't help but wonder if I did, if the lightning shock would increase or remain the same. At any rate, time is running out and Laxus must be getting impatient. It's just a matter of time before they go off and everything will be fried including the people in the town. But then again, Lucy and Happy went to get the people out of the town. Still, people's things, their homes, everything will be destroyed regardless unless we stop it. Since when does a thing like this matter to me anyways? I'm Nightmare. I'm a nightmare to other people, I'm supposed to bring misery to people and be alone... but that's not the name I gave myself. That's what others gave me, they didn't know me... The real me cares for the innocent and can't let people like Laxus hurt innocent people. Aw man, what have I gotten myself into? I groaned while backing up slightly from the railing I was leaning on. There's got to be hundreds of them, so maybe if I get at least ten or maybe even thirty of them at a time, then it'll be less electrocution... Or more. I debated for a long moment, deciding on the more the better. I raised my aims, breathing out as I began the spell. My spell dropped as someone made their way up behind me, their arms wrapping around me and up to my arms, slowly lowering them.

"What are you doing Natsu?" I exhale, having known better than to think I could have gotten away with this.
"I could be asking you the same thing." I could almost hear the false humor in his voice. I turned around to face him.
"It's not a horrible idea.." I shrug carelessly.
"Are you forgetting that Levy can get us out? Then we can go and find Laxus." He reminds.
"And what if we don't find him and the whole town blows?" He smirked with spunk while crossing his arms across his chest. I suck my teeth at him.
"Well then, I guess we can't let that happen now, can we?!" I give into the smile, turning my attention away from the lacrima overhead and go back inside.
"You really are something special, Natsu." I mumbled to myself aloud, deciding to check up on Master Gramps instead as a form of distraction. I frowned as I looked at him in his bed, the room quiet and sound. I sat down on a chair that was nearby.

"I know I haven't been in the guild too long, but I really have come to love this guild. I had only came here for something to eat, I didn't even care about where I slept.. But that's when Lucy welcomed me into her life, and I rather quickly grew close to everyone.. I never would have thought that I'd have come to love everyone. Natsu, Lucy, Erza, Gray, all of them. I actually found something that wasn't taken away from me like everything else. Sure Lucy was kidnapped a while ago but we got her back. Same with Erza, but come one, she's one scary chick.. The guild was destroyed but we all came together and fixed it. Laxus is about to destroy the whole entire town, but with a few words from Natsu, I know we're going to stop him. Even if I have to take on the whole Thunder Palace myself... It's funny, when I first got here Natsu and I butted heads, but now I don't think I could ever bring myself to be mad at him. Sure he does incredibly idiotic stuff but that's what makes me love him I guess. He's something special, I'll give him that. He's an idiot, goofy, rambunctious... but he's also funny, caring, and he knows how to make people laugh without even trying. That and he can give even the darkest person hope." I smiled to myself before I shifted, leaning back in the chair to relax more.
"You did an amazing job guiding the guild in the right direction, Master Gramps." I tilted my head back so that I was staring at the ceiling.
"I hope you recover soon, you're a part of my family too, and that means I can't lose you either. I promise, just as when you're awake, I'll look out for the others. I'll protect them with my life.." I heard a shuffle, turning promptly towards the noise. Levy peeked her head around the entryway, stepping further into the room with timidness with each step as she played with her hands before her.
"I'm sorry, I wasn't trying to listen." She started. I internally grimaced, wishing more than anything I could just go get my cloak. I cleared my throat, standing from the chair and shook my head.
"It's fine, just talking to Master Gramps." I state casually, trying to cover the fact she probably just heard me pour my feelings to the guild master. She smiled gently at me.
"You know.. We're all lucky to have you here. The other's really like having you around, and love more than anything that you've become part of their team." A smile tugs on the corner of my lips as I hear this, my own bashfulness presenting itself as I avoid eye contact for a brief moment.
"And I really like being a part of their team. I actually feel like I belong somewhere now."
"That's because you do belong here! You're one of us now, and you're always going to be. Oh, I probably should have said something sooner, I finally got it!" She beams gleefully, my smiling widening.
"Really?!" She nodded her head once more as we made our way to the others.
"Oh, and thanks Levy."