from the start

chapter 2: Autumn

There he was my six foot tall first love.
Although I don't think I love him anymore per say but my heart flutters a little bit whenever I see him. And why wouldn't it he was the one who had practically always been there for me when--there i go again. Making excuses and even if I were to make an excuse the first one I should say is I have a boyfriend.
"Jake, Kai's here" I shouted to my brother in the kitchen.
I stood by the door of a couple seconds fixing my hair then finally I opened the door and realized why he was my first love. His pitch black wavy hair that compliments his hazel eyes which reminds my heart to beat, his muscles covered but still bulging from his loose black shirt. His lashes,lips, height --stop it you have a boyfriend.
Although my boyfriend doesn't really qualify as one with the way he treats me like a tool but if you listen to him talk, you would know why I am still in the relationship. He makes me feel giddy with his words but knocks me back into my senses with a justified beating or two.
"Come in Kai" I said finally coming back to earth "Jake is in the kitchen. You can go get him or stay in the sitting room". I prayed that he stay in the sitting room with me so I won't have to go and meet Gus today even though that would earn me another beating.
"I'll go meet him in the kitchen" he said cutting off the last string of hope I had to coming home uninjured. He started walking towards the kitchen but turned back around and said "oh and if you hear me scream know i am being murdered by a mad chef" he said smiling so beautifully that I almost forgot that the name malakai was the same that girls tripping over,me including, boys hated,but could do nothing about it except fear the bearer of the name. The fact he gave my that smile meant I may survive this night.
His full name I have not said it in a while.
"Can the Almighty MalaKai scream at the hands of a person?" I said strolling back to the sitting room, catching a glimpse of his face. His beautiful face still smiling at me.
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I grabbed my bag after I got a call from Gus. I practically ran out the door and drove to Gus's place. I turned on my location so Jake could see in case need be, you can never tell with Gus, and walked out.
It was a party, an alcohol party my I add, with a bunch of people I have never met. I braced myself and walked in. Almost immediately a hand was around my shoulder, Gus.
"Hello babe" he said obviously drunk and reaking from alcohol."your a bit late but we would talk about it later" he whispered into my ear. I knew what he meant by talk.
Forcing a smile I sat down next to some random guy and used my phone. I was not a fan of alcohol but if drinking it would reduce my punishment then that Is what I would do.
" A glass of martini please"I said to the waiter passing by me.
"Of course" she said as she gifted me the glass.
The party went on for hours but by 2am they decided to go driving. What's wrong about getting drunk and then driving. Nothing at all.
I got in the car with an unknown stranger driving and the journey began. I was terrified, "I need to pee can I come down"I said after texting Jake that If I was not home by 3 am he should look for me.
"Pee is that the best you could come up with? Liar" Gus said still drunken.
"I am not--"I was caught off by a slap right across my face
"Don't lie to me Autumn. I hate lairs especially the pretty ones"he said grabbing my hair and pulling me closer to him.
"Just let--" a punch in the gut and a kick outside moving car. He drove off. Why did I lie? Why?
Before my eyes went completely black I checked the time 2:57. I might make it I thought. Before it all went dark all I could think of was the fact that I was the one who dated Gus, came to his party, went into the car and lied it's not his fault I am in this situation it's mine.
The smile Kai gave me was not enough.
"God, why did I chose Gus."
"I chose Gus"
"I wanted Kai"
It's my fault.