from the start

chapter 9: Kai

I made a huge mistake.
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To get my mind of the kiss I went out for a drive. I drove circles round my neighborhood knowing fully well that I was burning gas and my neighbors were getting suspicious.
After my first 10 laps I decided to stop for a drink. "Not a heavy one"I warned myself "you need to be able to drive after this" I walked into the nearest bar and ordered a bottle of vodka. Damn it.
I drank and drank till I began contemplating staying at this wretched place overnight. I thought against it and got up walking, more like staggering,to my car.
Don't die.
Don't die.
Don't die.
I kept repeating the same sentence over and over again.
My uneasy journey back to my neighborhood to make 10 more laps had began and end as soon as it did.
I didn't even notice that I was speeding until it was to late.
My car crashed into a tree, I tried to get out but I couldn't, I was stuck. A thick heavy liquid ran down my face, blood.
"Where are the god-damned neighbors when you need them?" I shouted still struggling to get out.
After a few minutes of struggling I lost feel in my legs then my arms, I was frantically wiping blood of my face but it was going nothing,I still couldn't see, I couldn't keep my eyes open it seemed my eyelids weighed a ton, I relented and shut my eyes opening them periodically, blood still rushing from my head.
Damn it, why now.
Everything seemed hazy but I could here sirens, an ambulance, I might survive. I tried opening the door once again knowing it would change nothing.
A snap. My hand broke.
I screamed all the feel coming back. To my body at the wrong moment. I could swear that I had been in the car for more than an hour as the paramedics tried getting me out. My blood stains on my shirt, my entire body throbbing. It seemed like I had never known pain until this moment and trust me I have seen hell.
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I was at the hospital when I opened my eyes. Autumn and Jake where right next to me.
I couldn't move. I couldn't speak, connected to an oxygen tank and other hospital equipment plus all the pain I was in made it impossible.
My hand was broken, a bandage around my head and torso,my legs where covered with a blanket so I couldn't see anything. I could only imagine.
Autumn was crying beside me and it was killing me not being able to tell her anything to calm her down. She was talking I couldn't see her lips move but I could hear her voice
"You may not be able t-to hear me but I-I" she stopped, burying her face into the blanket but legs where covered by.
She regained her composure and continued "I saw you as a friend but now I realize that I love you Kai" a sad smile covering her face."I don't know why I don't know how, I just do"
She loves me. If I was not bed ridden I would have kissed her right here and now. I remembered the first day we met. I smiled and opened my eyes.