What Have I Gotten Myself Into?

Cute Duckling

"Yes. I could try.." I'm currently at home, on the phone with someone at work who's perhaps also walking around the café somewhere, trying to negotiate with a customer. 

"After all this time, now they're trying to order 3 boxes of coffee beans?" I palmed my forehead, how do such people exist? I didn't give time for the staff to reply, 

"No, I get it. People have different lives but at least get around a phone call or email?" I paced around the living room, keeping quiet or at least trying to calm down as much as I could. 

"So, should I tell the customer that they can't get their boxes of coffee beans?" I sat down, pondering in my head what I should do or reply.

"It's fine, tell them to be patient for a week until they are delivered here. They could pick it up at the café when they're called to. I'll be the one paying for it, so let them know if they want to argue any longer, the order is getting canceled, and there'll be no refund for any other purchases." 

We talked for a while longer, the client on the other end agreeing to the terms before the staff hung up when we were finished. What a weird day of all days, and I can't make it to work. Sighing, I got up to go and charge my phone, but a little cry held me in place. I looked behind me and saw a cute sleeping duckling waking up.

Ahhh! So cute~ My heart is melting.

I crawled on the carpet to the eyes that looked at me sleepily, tiny hands messing with his pacifier.

"Did you have a good sleep, love?" I coo-ed, rubbing our noses together. The duckling just giggled, rubbing my face with his cute tiny hands. Oh my god, I could just eat you!

"Hehe, good thing papa brought your milk, yes?" I kept snogging our noses, giggling until the little duckling coo-ed with the pacifier now out of his mouth, drool just rolling down his chin. I put the small duckling into the cloth baby holder I then had put around my torso before heading to the kitchen. 

"Gotta make sure it's just right, right baby bear?" I boop our noses, pinching a drop of the shaked milk onto my wrist and tasting it. I walked back to the living room, and sat comfortably, taking off the cloth around my torso and holding the baby just right in my arm so I could feed the cute mouth his warm milk. 

Cute duckling, while drinking milk, would keep trying to hold onto my hand while also holding the bottle. The tiny grips are so small it can't even hold a baby bottle, I'm in awe with this cuteness. I know I was told to take care of this cutie but, oh...I could take care of you for life! 

Cute duckling was just about to fall asleep so I was getting ready to make the layout comfortable enough on the floor for sleeping, once more, when a call startled me. Woah! I look for my phone while trying not to curse who called me, I would've dropped the baby!

I could hear the ring but because it took forever trying to find it I didn't bother with it and got the cushion ready before comfortably lying the cute duckling down. The caller might not even be important. After three rings it stopped and I continued to inspect around the cushion making sure there's nothing close by and nothing that could hurt the baby. 

I slid down the floor with my back in contact with the leg of the couch and just then I felt a bump where my ass sat. I picked up to see my phone when it starting ringing again. Aslan?! 

"H..Hey!" Shi- That's so embarrassing, why did I stutter with a squeaky voice? Fuck. Should I end the call? Set the apartment on fire- I looked at the duckling...We'll be together in death...I try to excuse.

"How is baby Esden?" I hear the caller asking, sounds like he recovered from being taken back..? Straight to the point. 

"Ducklin- Excuse me, Esden is well. He ate a bit ago and had fallen asleep," Fucking hell, Joell!

". . . ."

". . . . . . "

"Ha. That's good..doesn't usually..nice." I felt happy at the praise but knitted my eyebrows at the mumble barely audible. 

"What?" He seems more quiet today. This morning he was rushing from the maid's home and thankfully she had Esden's extra stuff at home since she's often left to take care of him, even at her house. Between trying to contact Sov and running around with stuff and Esden, he was sweating buckets!

"Nothing. I'm happy to not hear him cry so much." I could be the perfect mother for your child.

I smiled widely, too happy to not squeak. I don't know if he heard me moving around so much, putting my knees to my chest and just trembling in excitement that cute duckling is sleeping well because of me. 

We just sat quiet after I calmed down. He didn't say anything nor commented on any noise if he'd heard. I wanted to talk to him a little longer.

"Is work busy?" I started a conversation. Please don't hang up. Don't hang up.

"No." 

"Uhm...Have you ate?" I noticed my nail was long, I snippled on it with my lips.

"No.." Oh! We could eat together..! I looked at cute duckling..I could just suggest it?

"Uhm, do you want to-" I heard footsteps. Then, a voice overshadowed mine.

"Aslan, break's here. Now, it's our date time." It's a woman's voice. She sound so sexy...A date?

"Thank you for the reminder. Jo-" I hung up.

I laid down on the floor, head closest to Esden's after shutting off my phone. So stupid. Why am I feeling depressed about? 

Oh..Why am I tearing up? I wiped my tears with the back of my hand but I feel my throat aching and pinched in pain so much that I couldn't control the overflow of tears. My the sleeve color of my arm got darker in color. I laid down fully, on my front, and pushed my eyes into baby Esden's cushion and sniffled the noises out. 

I could feel movements from the cushion but I held my face in its place. I didn't want to see anything or bother wiping another tear. 

"Ma..ma. Ooo..mama..waa." I felt tiny hands pulling my hair closet to the cushion and a voice getting louder. I slowly peeked my eyes up and out of the soft cushion. There, I came in contact with Esden that's drooling.

"I'm sorry, Esden." I pushed my head further close to Esden's and his hands patted my face, making random noises, "Mama..mama." He giggles. 

"Mama's sorry, your cushion is wet now." I didn't even realize the label I gave myself. Esden patted my face and slid his tiny hands around my face where new tears slid. "Mama." 

My head was bigger than his arm but he flew them around so I pushed my face further closest to his and he tried hugging my head so I put the tiniest weight on his stomach while he goo-ed giggles and wet my string of hair in his mouth. "Mama..he..mama." I look at him and see his mouth open and wide, smiling and making sounds that can be taken as happiness. 

I fell asleep with him, besides him in my arms after his last call, "ma."