Chapter 5
"How are you feeling?" Synestine asked. She sat next to me in the clinic's bed. Ramdam ko ang lungkot sa tono ng pananalita niya. I felt like she came here to see me because of how bad she felt about what her boyfriend did to me.
That was fucking stupid I must say.
Iniangat ko ang ulo ko at mabilis kong sinilip ang mukha niya. "Okay lang. . ." Tipid kong sagot at itinungo muli ang ulo ko. "I'm actually fine. . . You don't have to worry about me. Maybe you being here would make it more complicated."
"I don't care," matabang nitong sagot sa akin. "It's his fault to come at you like that. He's in the Dean's office now and I wish they would suspend him."
Naningkit ang mata ko sa sinabi niya. I felt like it wasn't right. She should be with her boyfriend rather than sitting with me inside the clinic. I wanted to push her away because it didn't sit right with me. Hindi ko siya magawang tingnan nang maayos. She knew how did we end up here, and that's because of what happened last night.
I don't even fully remember what happened last night—bullshit lang.
"I'm going to break up with him today." Mabilis na umangat ang ulo ko sa sinabi ni Synestine. Hindi ko naman inaasahan na sasabihin niya 'yon. I was expecting for something else, but not something that goes along that line. "Surprising ba? For me, hindi na. I've had enough, Pocholo. . . Kung alam mo lang. . ."
Isang malalim na buntonghininga naman ang pinakawalan nito. "Ah. . . I really don't know what to say, Sy. . . And I'm sorry about what happened—"
She smirked. "Don't worry about it. Don't mind it. Sila lang ang gumawa ng big deal."
"But they said we kissed," pagpapatuloy ko. "Wala talaga akong maalala. I was drunk. Kung hindi pa binanggit ng roommate ko 'yong nangyari, I wouldn't even have the slightest idea of it. I know it's my fault."
"Hm. . . No. Don't blame yourself," anito na para bang normal lang. Ito ako na sobrang nag-aalala, pero para sa kanya ay wala lang. "I. . . I shouldn't be saying this, but I was the one who kissed you last night. You didn't kiss me. It's not your fault. If there's someone who should blame for it, it would be me. . ."
Napakunot ang noo ko. Alam kong kung titingnan niya ako ay halos katanungan ang namumuo sa mukha ko ngayon.
"I don't understand. . ."
"For now, you won't, but maybe soon you will. . ." Pinatong nito sa ibabaw ng kamay ko ang kamay niya. If Tomas could see me right now, he would be laughing at my ass because of my face. "Let's talk again soon. Maybe later or tomorrow. I have to talk to Cameron first, and I would like you to get some rest for now."
"I think that would be great. . ." I replied.
"Alright, see you around, Mister de Amos."
I smiled as I watched her walk out of the clinic. I still couldn't believe it would end up like this. But I felt so bad about it. Para bang kasalanan ko kung bakit siya makikipag-break kay Cameron. I saw them happy together, and breaking up might cause gossip, especially since I was a part of why they separated.
I wish we hadn't gone to that party and gone home straight. I regret it now.
I spent a couple of hours in the clinic until the nurse finally cleared me to go. Wala na naman akong klase. Excuse na ako sa klase ko kanina na dapat papasukan ko. I wish they didn't have a quiz earlier or I will be damned.
Hinintay ko si Tomas na matapos sa klase niya, pero agad nitong binungad sa akin na may naririnig siyang usapan na break na daw sina Cameron at Synestine. Hindi ako kumibo. Hindi ako nagbigay ng komento. Alam kong gagawin iyon ni Synestine dahil siya mismo ang nagsabi sa akin kanina, but I didn't know it would be that fast. Cameron would hate me so much. I just hope I won't end up dead in the streets tonight.
