Chapter 26
Today was Synestine's first death anniversary.
My life turned upside down when the world took her away from me. If anyone would think it happened that way, I would let them believe it, but I was there and I could've changed how things would end, but I didn't. It was my fault and I blamed myself for why she died in my arms.
"'Nak, uuwi ka ba ngayon? I think you need to come home. . . Limer needs his father. . ." Mom called and the call ended when the phone shut down.
I haven't been home for two months and I was trying to keep myself better for my son, but I still couldn't help myself. I lost connection to anyone. Whenever they were trying to reach out to me, I didn't answer their calls or reply to their messages. It wouldn't make Synestine come back to life. If there was an easy way for me to be with her without hurting all the people I loved it would be my option, but I can't, especially when Synestine brought our baby to life and I promised her I would be the best father for him.
And I think I'm failing.
I was staying in some motels and the streets for the past few weeks, but nothing made me feel better. It just gets worse dealing with all this shit alone. I don't care if my friends or family would see me in this situation. I thought I deserved the worst. I can't have a good life when I could've had that when I didn't put the love of my life in her final destination.
We vowed to live and love 'til the death do us part, and now she's gone, how am I supposed to do those things?
"Hoy! Umalis ka riyan." Napatingin ako sa taong tumawag ng pansin ko habang nakaupo ako sa gilid ng kalsada. "Kanina pa kita napapansin diyan. Masyado ka nang naging abala sa mga taong dumadaan, e. Could you please get your ass up shit anywhere?"
Tumango na lamang ako at tumayo na mula sa pagkakaupo ko sa sahig. Muli lang akong natumba nang bigla ako nitong sipain sa gilid. Before I could even get myself up, he started punching me everywhere on my body. I couldn't defend myself. I put my arms up to cover my face and crouch on the ground while taking all the punches he threw at me.
He only stopped punching and kicking on me when a woman came to us stopping what he was doing. Hindi pa ito natapos kung hindi ay pinagsalitaan pa ako ng masasakit na salita.
"Could you just walk away?! Wala namang ginagawa sa 'yo 'yong tao, ha?"
Hindi na sumagot ang lalaki at pumasok sa loob ng shop nito. Tinulungan naman ako ng babae na tumayo sa pagkakahiga sa sahig. When I looked at her, I thought I saw someone familiar.
"Are you okay?" she asked.
Tango na lang din naman ang naisagot sa kanya habang nakatitig ako sa mukha niya. Tinulungan niyang pagpagan ang damit ko at naramdaman ko na lang din ang ibang parte ng katawan ko na masakita.
"Have you eaten?" she asked, but I didn't answer. "Let's get you some food to eat. . ."
Sumunod lang ako sa kanya hangga't sa mapunta kami sa isang fast food. She told me to find a table for us while she would get our order at the counter. I was looking around if someone would recognize me, but I felt so much relieved when I knew no one in this place. I've been away from Chester Town because that place holds a lot of memories for me I don't know if I could handle them all at once.
Pagbalik ng babaeng tumulong sa akin ay inilapag niya ang tray ng order niya sa table. Inabot naman nito sa akin ang burger, coke, at fries. Napansin ko naman na wala siyang in-order para sa sarili niya kaya in-offer ko ang kalahati ng burger ko, pero tinanggihan naman niya ito.
