Eyes as black as night.

Once he knew

I would say life wasn't the best but we weren't living, we were surving. Showering, eating, socialising, they were all things you would do in life, the things we were doing right now but each and everyone of us knew that this wasn't the kind of life we had planned when we thought about safety.

Sitting on that bench, clean and fed, talking with my beautiful sister and amazing bestfriend I came to admit something. Who should I reveal the truth to first though? Telling Mia, well she might just cry becuase she never stopped thinking about him, but telling Teresa all I could see was jealousy and competition. But competition I could win surely?

"Hey Ressy, I need to tell you something..." the words leaving my mouth fractured and stopped in all the wrong places and I sounded like I was having a stroke. "Sure, what's up?" She smiled trying to hide her giggles. "So, you like Lizard right?" I said to her, making sure to use his code name becuase 'lizard'was sitting right opposite us "No, not anymore" the gorgeous words fell from her lips and I seemed to squeak in joy. I did get a few funny looks for that. It only took one look at me for her to realise why I was asking. "YN! You like lizard!" She shouted slamming her hands in the table.

Those who didn't know my sister would presume she was mad at what I had said but I knew she wasn't. Everyone had now stopped what they were doing and looked over at us. There was only three people that I really cared about that were looking, Thomas, Mia and Newt. "What?" I laughed awkwardly as I looked between them. "Care to share with the class who this mystery man is then?" Said Thomas looking back at me smiling wildly. "If I did, I would've told you all right away, wouldn't I?" There was something inside of me that wanted them all to know but that really wasn't going to happen. "Touché" said Thomas less smiley than before as he looked down to his empty plate. "And also- who said it was a mystery 'man' why cant it be a woman?" I laughed trying to push another one of my secrets out of my lips, another I knew I would never actually say. He laughed as he looked back up to me, I forced my face to say that I was joking and I was, even if the joke may have been true...

Everyone went back to what they were doing after that except Lizard, it was like he knew who we were talking about. I looked into his eyes as he looked into mine. I don't know what he was looking for so deep inside my soul but I was searching his polished orbs for a mutual feeling. Every time I looked into his eyes I noticed something different and stared at it for so long that it engraved its self inside my retina. Each time it happened a picture of his eye became even clearer when I closed my eyes.

It was clear he knew, Newt knew I was talking about him and the sheer thought of him not feeling the same made my Lunga shrivel so much it was hard to breathe, and my head swirl so much I couldn't see.

I stood up from the table and went out into the connecting greenhouse, inside the maze, the garden was my safe space but here there was no garden, just a scientific greenhouse but it would have to do. I sat down on the floor of the greenhouse and rested my head against my knees.

Then he came to me, sat with me, held my hand but this boy probably isn't who you think he is, he isn't Newt, he's someone new...