Eyes as black as night.

Torture

(Just so you know all italic text will be flash backs x)

I don't know why it felt so good to have someone holding my hand and trying to comfort me, people from the glade used to do it but they had a lot more to worry about now.

I looked at Aris, he was already looking at me when I turned my head. I smiled at him as he looked at my furrowed brow. He was such a nice person.

The doors banged as they began to slide shut, it didn't sound that healthy. "Is that it?" I asked trying to keep my voice hushed. He stared at me and didn't answer. "I guess so" said Thomas looking  away from my face down to my hand. Aris still had his hand on top of mine and he had woven his fingers into the gaps I had purposefully opened when he had held on to me.

Thomas looked between us both as wild smirk grew across his face. Aris moved his hand away and began to move through the vents again. "You guys can go now." He said flatly, keeping his head turned so we couldn't see him. Before he sprawled off into the far vent.

"Where the hell are we supposed to go?" I asked Thomas. "You can stay in our dorm tonight becuase, I have absolutely no idea how to get back to where your supposed to be" he laughed to himself before turning back around and crawling away from whatever we just witnessed. Of course I had to go back with the people I really didn't want to be near, they might have been my friends but they all had to have know who I liked by now.

I was dreading going to see them all, even if they were going to be asleep when I arrived, they wouldn't be when I woke up. When we were in the glade I was always the last to wake up, especially after Ben died. I really did miss Ben sometimes, he would've known what to say.

The thing with me and Ben was strange to me. I loved him, but not in the romantic way I probably should've. I loved the way he laughed and the way he knew how to comfort me, but if i could go back to when he asked me out, I would probably say no. I don't think it was fair he died so young but it did sort of make my life easier in a way.

When we got to the room everyone was asleep, everyone but Newt. Out of everyone in that room he was the one I wanted awake the absolute least. "What the bloody hell are you doing here love?"  Newt asked as I mounted the vent cover back on the wall. "I just need to stay here for now" I said getting to my feet and scraping my hair back into a bun like I normally did before doing anything.

Without saying another word I climbed  into the last free bunk and it was just my luck that the bunk just happened to be the one under Newts. For God's sake.

I closed my eyes waiting for sleep to take me in its warm arms but it was always hard for me. I thought about a lot of things when I was alone with my thoughts. Most of the time I thought about Ben, Teresa, my parents but recently I thought about Newt, it was really odd that night though; that night I thought about Aris too. That wasn't even the worst part though, the worst part was the dream.

"How am I supposed to help you Newt, you don't talk to me anymore!" I was shouting and pleading through tears in a very heated conversation with none other than lizard boy himself. "I have to go, they'll take you soon aswell I'm sure, never forget how much I love you YN" he said, blood coursing through his face as he stopped himself from crying too hard."Tommy, Aris, please, please take care of her" he said before pulling you tightly into his chest. Three armed men burst through the bolted door, ripping his warm arms off of me, but it wasn't just him they were taking, they wanted me too. I screamed and pulled against the men's grip, I knew where they were taking me. They dragged me down the south corridor, away from my friends, away from him.

I knew what was happening as they belted me to the steel table, I hated WCKD, I hated everything about them. When the doctor walked in, blade in hand, a wide smile plastered across his face, I knew it was time. The tears that glistened against the back of my hand swirled in with the red running down my arms as i cried harder and harder and screamed for Newt to come and save me, but he never did, he would never save me as that Newt again, he would be different next time, if there ever was a next time.

"My baby" a woman's voice said as she stroked my hair. I woke up in a room that seemed very familiar to me, it was an office on the top floor of the compound. "Mother?" I questioned unable to move to see her. "Yes dear?" The woman cooed as she continued stroking my hair. "Wheres father?" The mention of him made both me and my mother tense up. "Still missing my dear" she said causing us both to relax slightly "Rest up dear, you'll be gone soon" what did she mean gone? I wasn't one to argue in this state "yes mother" I responded as the white coated woman walked infront of my falling gaze as I slipped back into sleep.

I next woke up in a dorm room very similar to the one I was actually asleep in . "My little dove, why do you cry?" Aris said as he stroked my arm from a chair pulled up to my bunk. "My father's still gone" I said to him as more tears fell down my face "int that a good thing?" He said looking down at me and wiping away my tears. "No Ari, it still happened, that means it's as much my mother's fault as it is his" I said suppressing my sobs in to small, short breaths "Oh dove, it will be okay" he said leaning back in his chair and sighing, I could tell it stressed him too. "Where's Newt?" I asked as I moved my beaten, aching body. "He's gone Dove" he said squeezing your hand tightly. I sat there silently with heavy tears falling down my blotchy face. Aris stood up and left the room leaving me, presumably, alone. I sobbed for hours until I could no longer feel anything and then my body fell into a cold, empty sleep.