Leah and her soldier

Moving day

Today is the day we move and Leah is at training, I'm still in pain, Poff is in a sling and basically I am fucked. Leah wanted to push the move back but I need to get my family into our home our new home I just don't know exactly how I'm going to do that. We haven't found a nanny so I have Zade with me Xander is stuck to Leah at the moment and won't leave her side and yeah great what am I going to do. I sit on the sofa and think "HELLO???" I walk into the passage "what the fuck are you doing here?" "Baby girl please let us help you" "no chance I would rather break every bone in my body and do it all myself then have help from yous" "kid come on I'm sorry I shouldn't of said what I did I let my tiredness get the better of me and said things I would never mean" "you had me fooled!" I walk back into the sitting room "you know what little man I think you should help me."

I pick Zade up and go upstairs putting him on the bed. I go to pick a box up "ah fuck!" I hear footprints race up the stairs "Chris what happened? Are you alright?" "Leave me alone!" I bat Kieth's hand away "how did you even know I was here?" "Leah phoned us her parents are busy and she knew you needed help" "of course she did I mean how hard is it to stick to your wife's wishes" "what are them?" "To not fucking tell yous anything!" "Chris tell me what it will take to make this up to you name it and I will do it" "anything?" "Anything kid" "can you give my family a safe place to stay so I can keep protecting them? Can you help me make my son feel as loved as he is seeing as it was just 2 days since his bio dad was calling him nothing saying I wasn't his mummy and had a knife to his throat? Can you do that for me Kieth?" "Chris I fucked up I know I fucked up, it was the biggest fuck up I've ever made and I'm going to make it up to you all starting with moving you and your family into your new home. I'm going to call some buddies of mine to give a hand ok."

I decide to let dad do all the work and I lie on the bed with Zade just ignoring them all but mum sits on my bed "bet you'll be glad to get in the new house?" "Yep" "and Xander will be happy that Bella will be able to come home from Amanda's" "yep" "Chris talk to me I'm your mum" "didn't feel like it the other day" "I know, we are a little rusty when it comes to having kids in the house it's been a long time." I sigh "he's missing Bella Leah wanted to get Zade settled into the house properly" "when are you getting her home?" "Tonight so we can all get settled in the house together" "I'm glad to hear that, baby girl don't be too tough on your dad he has been beating himself up since the day you left, he has never gotten to do the whole baby thing or child thing his daughter was taken away from him remember?" "Wow throw the biggest guilt trip in the world on me" "so does this mean you will forgive him?" "Can I just use him as a slave for today?" "Do you have too?" "He would be yours too" "ok deal."

Me and mum sit and watch a movie she has honestly been a godsend, changing Zade when he needs it, feeding him and comforting him. I'm in so much pain "sweetheart why won't you take the painkillers from the hospital?" "They are strong ones" "I know they would help with the pain" "I have an addictive personality let's not becoming addicted to strong painkillers when I fight every day to not drink" "what do you mean? Is it not easier?" "Mum I'm an addict the urges are always there but then I just have to look at Leah and my sons and it makes everything a whole lot easier" "you know I'm so proud of you" "thanks mum could you put Zade on my chest please?" "Of course." Once Zade is on my chest I lie there and start doing some shopping "what are you buying?" "I bought all of my office furniture, some stuff for Zade and new toys for Xander, I bought more lights for Xanders room andddd something that may get me killed" "Jesus Christ what have you done?" "I got Xander a Mercedes battery car that he can ride" "why do I feel there is more to it" "it reaches 10 mph" "what?" "I will buy him a helmet" "Leah is going to kill you" "yeahhhh maybe."

I continue shopping and spend a fortune I hope Leah doesn't look at the bank account anytime soon. "Are you finished?" "I think I should be yeah I have just emailed the decorators to see when they will be done by so I can sort the flooring out..." "hey my favourite ladies we are getting some dinner would you like some" "mum take Zade for me please." Mum takes Zade and I get up walking over to my dad giving him a hug "I'm sorry dad" "no kid I'm sorry and I can't wait to see Xander later to give him the biggest hug" "he will love that" "sweetheart Leah is ringing you" "shit you answer it I'm scared" "soft shite."