Leah and her soldier

First game of the season

Leah is current getting sorted to go to the stadium and I get Xander ready because Amanda is taking him to the game. I put his arsenal top on "I wook wike mama now" "you do and yous are both gorgeous" "mummy you come wif?" "Not this time baby I have to look after Zade" "ade come?" "He's too young at the moment but after Christmas he will be able to" "what chrimas?" "You know what let's get you some breakfast and we will tell all about it" "ok mummy." I go downstairs with Xander and make some breakfast and get Zades bottle ready.

Leah comes downstairs with Zade "my love your first bowl of cereal is on the table if you pass Zade i will feed him" "thank you baby." I take Zade and start feeding him "mama?" "Yeah bubs?" "What chrimas?" Leah just looks at me "I had that upstairs" "well bubs have you heard of Santa?" "No" "right well I tell you what tomorrow we will tell you all about Christmas and Santa and everything else you need to know but today we just focus on football how does that sound?" "I wike football, wiw I see my aunties?" "You will" "yeyyy" "is your bag ready for you to sleep at grandmas?" "Yes mama" "have you got Mickey?" "No" "well go get him then." Xander runs off "our son doesn't know what Christmas is" "I know my love but after this year he will look forward to it every year" "he will are you going to be alright with him sleeping out?" "He needs it my love he is so tired off waking up when Zade does through the night" "I know but at the same time we got lucky because he always comes and checks that Zade is alright" "he is gorgeous like that."

Once Leah is finished her cereals she gets her stuff together "right my beautiful people I have to go I will see you later and I will see you at the stadium" "bye mama" "give them hell my love" "always baby." Leah gives us all a kiss then heads to the stadium "right baby let's get your shoes on ready for grandma coming" "ok mummy, mummy?" "Yeah baby?" "I come back home?" "Of course you will tomorrow after getting a full nights sleep tonight and you will be nice and rested when you come home tomorrow" "Ade come wif?" "No he is going to be staying here so he doesn't wake you up" "ok mummy."

~Leah's POV~
I drive to the stadium I'm excited for this game, we have been training hard and we are playing at the emirates. I just wish Chris and Zade could come but Chris says after Christmas he can start coming to games. It's so cute at the minute because he has started cooing which he is doing a lot especially through the night. I stay in my thoughts and before I know it I'm at the stadium. I get out of the car "you excited for this Leah?" "Emirates stadium Rafa I can't believe we are playing here" "well earned Leah." I receive a text off Chris and it is a photo of Zade in his arsenal top 'always rooting for mama!' "Have you seen this?" I show Rafa the photo "awww isn't he cute" "I know." "What we looking at?" I show the girls the text "awww look at him, is Xander going to be here today?" "Yeah he wants to see yous after the game" "we would love that, how's therapy going?" "Really well actually we are getting old Xander back."

We go in and do our walk around of the pitch before going into the changing rooms. I sit there texting Chris for a little bit before getting sorted for the game.

~Chris' POV~
'Front door' "Sarge?" "In the sitting room mate" Poff comes in "aww sarge look at Zade in his Arsenal kit" "he looks mint doesn't he?" "Yeah I can't believe you have me watching an Arsenal game" "I know I'm so proud but Poff can you please just call me Chris?" "Why?" "Because I'm not your Sargent I'm your mate" "please Chris just let me call you sarge" "what's going on poff?" "Nothing" "don't lie to me" "honestly sss.." "boy I swear down" "ok I've been struggling a bit" "in what way?" "Flashbacks, nightmares, the voices" "voices? What voices?" "The screams and the ones telling me things" "things what things?" "How I'm a murderer and things like that" "mate have you sought help?" "I'm on a waiting list" "what are you doing on a waiting list?" "I can't afford private" "I'll get in touch with my therapist" "I can't afford it Chris" "you took a knife for my son poff I'll phone him tomorrow ok?" "Thank you sarge."