the distance of our souls

Chapter VI - The Light

This chapter is meant for you, August, to relive some of the best memories.♥️

          As September and October arrived, our love, our friendship, our everything had been shown. I felt so much radiation of feeling seen and being myself. I'd shown her my face by this time, and she had heard my voice. Her reactions meant the world; It was like my insecurities were erased for a while. For every instant she complimented me, i felt beautiful, as beautiful as i could be. I always wanted to repay her for this, she had no idea what it all meant to me.

She held my heart with such grace and gentleness, even the weeks it was shattered and weak. The week of my birthday, i got traumatized and hurt, even those nights with the nightmares and insomnia, she put me to sleep and calmed me down every single time i needed help to. We called every night, always having a blast. The first time we called wasn't even awkward, we got along pretty well. It was so nerve racking knowing i had to reveal myself in secret, but i knew it would be worth it to see her smiling and giggling. She made me feel amazing most days, and she always tried to cheer me up when i needed. She was worth sooo much to me. I wrote her letters and i wrote her so many things to help her , repay her, comfort her, reassure, make sure she understood she was worthy of love, and so much more.

I was finally able to help her feel love, feel less alone, tell her things like how beautiful she really is to me, how kind and loving and lovable she makes herself be without even trying. Oh, i want her to know she'll always be my everything. I was capable of putting her to sleep with hushing and love, and o was able to make her smile peak out. Everything that mattered to me was her health and happiness, so i did everything i could to protect her at all costs, like how she did to me many times before.

I was finally happy to be the light in her life, at least one is what i mean.  I meant just as much to her as she meant to me, and i was always forever grateful for that.

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In October, August became one of the most bright things in my life, as everything became more and more stressful. Me and August, were both obsessed with the song "We fell in love in October" and decided to refall in love allll over again to own that song. I was always in awe. she cared about me so much. She sent me sweet voicemails, i sent some back. We started making cute ideas for our future, we bonded over many things too.

At this time, during the stage we felt like a newly wed couple, we would begin to start taking care of a little pet that lived on our phones, Rose the goose. I was the one who committed to taking care if her as if she were our first child. However, my girlfriend, on the other hand.. She neglected and starved our baby, always put it up to me to take care of her, and we never ended up finding out what happened to Rose, as we forgot about her and stopped caring.. Anyways. This was the time we began talking about having kids of our own, the house we want to live in, and the lifestyle me and her want to live in. August wanted animals, several; something i wouldn't mind, or in fact, i would love it. I really wanted a few animals myself too, which is how me and August decided we'd own a place suitable for all the animals we planned on having.. Which is why i suggested my dream house, a type of house i'd been in love with since i was a little girl: a beautiful medium sized cottage up up in the mountains, in a small town in perhaps Switzerland or something, with lots and lots of land.  My girlfriend happily agreed to this dream i had, slowly as the months went on she became just as obsessed with it too! As well as, we both needed to think about how we would financially be stable enough to afford it, so we attempted a conversation with each other to figure out our careers that we were both still deciding on, just  in all hopes our future jobs could pay well and make us happy. Just as my other job would make me, i couldn't wait to be the mother to such an outstanding woman's kids. I have always wanted two babies, especially one being a girl. August slowly grew onto the feeling of wanting a baby herself, specifically a boy. I would do anything to get her that, and luckily i was assured she wouldn't treat her real kids like she treated Rose. (better be right😢) And lastly, the biggest thing me and my sweet girlfriend desired, was marriage. A beautiful ceremony together, light pink decorations, beautiful flowers, just every typical wedding dream. We both just agreed we wanted to be together forever, so much so we attempted a wedding in roblox which was never actually preformed.

What a life to live.

I fell so hard for her when she got excited over her costume. She sent me videos of her trying on her skirt and showing me demos of the makeup and blood, she got extremely creative with the whole idea; something i am so intrigued about her is her creativity.  Genuinely, it's something about her that i'm attracted to. She looked so beautiful, my baby vampire. I'd wished that we could go trick or treating together, knowing we'd have a blast and getting sugar rushes together would be such a memorable experience. Sadly, it couldn't happen at the time.

August had such a beautiful mind; all of October she was shined with light, just as the moon did. She reminded me of the moon, her eyes, her glow, her beauty.. Oh, everything!! October was our best month ut felt like; we were so in love. August was hyped for her favourite holiday to arrive, she was excited to do her makeup and wear her costume, she was thrilled knowing we fell in love again just for the sake of a song. Our relationship felt unreal, we sent voice messages everyday, just for fun and to hear each other from how addicted we became to each other's voices. We had been calling every night knowing it was the thing we looked forward to a lot after each passing day, especially since me and her were both drained from school and our home life's, we always took care of each other. I think it's so cute of her to continuously try to make me feel better, i love getting butterflies from that beautiful voice of hers. I'll always have her back whenever she needs me to,

i love her, my beautiful moonlight.

The beginning of us will always be my favorite🤍

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