the distance of our souls

Chapter XV- Adults

October 7TH, 2030

August and i had been living in our apartment for about a year and a half at this point, it was awfully empty due to saving up for furniture in our actual soon-to-come home. But we had fortunately been earning almost our goal amount for our first house, we were so close.

On a daily basis we would start buying our snacks and our food for our usual home cooked meals we made together or for each other.  We went to Walmart this one time, we bought all our favourite fruits; watermelon for both of us, green apples for my girlfriend, cherries for me, strawberries for us, and a few others like bananas for my delish banana strawberry milkshakes. We also get to buy a hunch of our favourite snacks together as well, it's my favourite way to bond, we often bully each other or force each other to try our favourite snacks.  I love it, i love being her best friend.

More later in time, we also would wander to Ikea, preordering furniture for the following year, which always excited us. We had ordered a white sofa, a small coffee table, two makeup desks, and a few other random things we wanted that matched our colour theme and price ranges. Unfortunately, our coffee table arrived early to us for some reason, so we decided we'd attempt to build it, just for funsies. We failed miserably however, because we didn't own any of the tools required yet, unfortunately. But it was definitely fun to scream and laugh with each other out of genuine confusion. A wholesome moment.

However, everyday isn't always silly perfect moments, most days actually, we break down. We get stressed from work, we miss each other, and we get scared, really scared. Being adults together was definitely easier than how we'd imagine it to be alone, but it still didn't mean we wouldn't be afraid. It was honestly still overwhelming. I didn't feel ready to become an adult with full responsibility on everything in my life, and neither did August. We both felt like our childhoods were robbed from us, we felt like we missed them. I wished i hadn't grown up so quickly, i couldn't believe that with just a blink of an eye we were a few moody teenagers to full adulthood lovers. Terrifying but wholesome. This one night, specifically the week we would be looking for our cottage in the mountains, i came
across a distressed girl. She was scared and hated the feeling of moving somewhere farther away from her family, making her overstimulated and upset . "Luz, i don't wanna go. I do but i don't. I'm scared." She said with tears in her eyes, i pulled my baby into a tight long hug whilst hushing her, making sure she felt every bit of physical comfort. I kissed her, then saying "It's okay baby, i know. I know it's scary. It's hard.
But i promise you, you are gonna be okay!🤍We'll still visit everyone, often if you'd like even. We're going to be okay. Shh." I told her. She nuzzled her head into my neck, which i had already figured out it meant "okay, i hope so, please keep comforting me." So i would, i'd continuously play with her hair and begin to hush and whisper the affirmations needed. I loved her, i wanted her to be okay. She deserved that, and i knew the whole plan thing would be easier said than done, but we were capable of getting through it. Getting through the hard parts always makes a path for the easier stuff.

We were so close, we had been taking care of each other so well. We took turns cooking and cleaning everyday, and we enjoyed being together in the same building . I was so happy to be with her, at long last. Figuring life out was so much better and easier with the love of my life, i was so grateful. It would be hard together, but harder lonely, which is why we stuck together, to helo each other understand things more. She was the best partner in life, which is also why i was so desperate to make her my wife.

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