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Chapter twenty-nine.

Aliyah Rain
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Holding onto Blane, as he slept felt almost normal. But it wasn't just normal, it wasn't just something that we'd do.

It was something that we both needed, wanted, after everything..we just needed to be together in silence.

I couldn't sleep, as hard as I tried I just couldn't and I honestly didn't want to. All I wanted to do was look at him, and the bruises on his face which I knew was throughout the skin on his tiny figure.

He hadn't ate in 30 days, a whole month and weighed 98 pounds.

His little sister is almost the same weight, which she is 7 years old now. While he was stuck in a cold dark room, Boston was celebrating her 7th birthday without her big brother.

We hadn't told his siblings, just only that he would come back soon.

Sneaking out of his embrace to use the bathroom, I tip toed. When I finished, I washed my hands and dried them before I walked back in the room.

It was fairly cold, they had only gave us one blanket which was paper thin.

I go out to the front desk, to get another blanket or two. The nurse walks back into the storage room, as she closed the door handing me the blankets.

Blanes room was close to the nurse station, so it was only a tiny walk before I had to go in.

Opening the door, I see Blane frantically searching around the room and in the bathroom. Rushing over to his side, " Blane..are you okay? What are you looking for? "

He shakes his head, gently holding my arms. " I thought you were gone..I didn't know where you was. "

I take his hand and lead him back to the bed, laying him down. " I went out to get more blankets..it's okay. "

Being cautious I climbed into the bed, " Okay..are you okay now? I'm sorry I scared you. " He brings me close to him. " No no..it's okay, I'm fine. "

I bring a hand up to stroke his hair, his body flinches before relaxing into my touch. " Do you want to talk about it?.."

He stays silent before almost a whisper comes from his mouth. " It was horrible Lemon, just horrible. "

They were nothing I could do to erase it from his mind, or his body. As much as I wanted to help him, I knew I couldn't.

He had been through so much things for the past month, all I could do was be with him and be there for him.

Sometimes all you need is someone, and I plan on being that someone for Blane.

I bring one of his hands up to my lips, pressing a kiss on the top. " I know baby..I know. I'm so sorry. "

I rearrange us, to where I'm hugging him as his head is tucked into my neck. " You are so strong though, and I'm so proud of you..you have no idea. "

Holding me a little tighter than before, " I've missed you so much, Lemon. So much. "

I kiss his head, " I've missed you Blane..to much. "

We sit and hold each other close, before I knew it I was fast asleep for the first time in a month.
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After a week in the hospital, they discharged Blane to go home but to bed rest for another few days.

Knowing Blane he definitely won't, bed rest isn't in his vocabulary and he's been in this bed all week long.

I help him into my car, even though I know he hates being helped. He's really independent, but he stays silent and lets me.

Shutting his door, I walk to the other side getting in mine.

Driving down the street, to his house he stares out the window. I know he'll open up about it when he's ready, but it's so painful watching him struggle in quiet.

Pulling into his driveway, " Are you sure your ready for this? " He looks at his house, before me. " I am, I think I am. "

I smile softly, before getting out as he does as well. Opening the door, Blane is almost tackled to the floor by little bodies.

Watching him try to hug them all at once, warmed my heart. After everyone almost calmed down, he swept Brynn up into his arms.

She planted a small kiss to his cheek, " I missed you Lane, don't ever leave again. " He holds her close. " I won't, I promise. "

For about an hour or two, his siblings were all over his Mmm asking questions and everything as I cooked for everybody in the kitchen.

I didn't want Mrs. Orson, who had gotten a new job to get out of the house why the kids went to school have to cook when she came home.

I couldn't imagine what she had felt when Blane went missing, I know I was hurt but she's his mother.

Stirring the noodles, they begin to soften up as I zone out watching them.

This will be Blanes first actual meal, so I made his favorite. Spaghetti, but with a little twist to it which is Alfredo sauce instead of regular red sauce.

He loves Alfredo as much as he loves me, because we had fought over it as a joke.

Hearing the over beep, I click back into the real world and get the garlic bread out of the stove as I turned it off.

Straining the noodles, I prepared everyone's plate and brung it out to the dining table.   

Walking in the living room, " Dinners ready, y'all can come eat! " Suddenly little bodies rush around mine from all directions to the dining room.

" Can we eat it the living room, pleaseeeeee? " Boston looks up to me, as she carry's her plate. I look to Blane, and he nods. " Of course we can, y'all agree on a movie and we'll watch it. "

Everyone shrieks in excitement, as the bolt to the couch. Me and Blane makes our way to the dining room, to get our plates.

As I'm going to grab mine, a hand is reached out for my waist pulling me in for a kiss. " My favorite meal, and I'm only now wishing for dessert. "

" Mmm, to bad I baked your favorite cake hm? " I whisper against his lips.

" I'm always alright with two desserts, especially if one is you. " He presses his lips against mine, before grabbing the both of our plates and walking towards the living room.

The warmness pools in my stomach, I shake my head. No, he just got out of the hospital and needs to rest.

As much as I want him, I need him to heal up so all that will be happening tonight is sleep.

Sitting down beside him, after collecting myself we watch Princess and the frog. " Also, thank you for this..truly. I couldn't have done it without you, Lemon. " He looks away from the tv.

" No need to thank me, I'm happy I get to do this for you. Plus, it's all worth is seeing everyone smile. " I take a bite of my noodles.

He leans over and kisses me, before going back to watch the movie.

At that moment, I realized this is where I truly want to be for the rest of my life. Right here, next to Blane and maybe not his siblings but our own kids.

Our life together, is where I long to be.