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Chapter thirty-three.

Aliyah Rain
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Placing a hand over Blanes heart, I try to calm him down. " Your okay..your okay. " As he slowly comes back into realization, his hand cups over mine.

Getting out of the car, in the middle of the road as I wave other cars to pass us. Opening his door, I lean over and I unbuckle him before helping him to the passenger side.

I'm going to take him back to my house, and let him rest this off or warm up a shower for him.

Now that I'm his fiancé, it's my job to take care of him. Even though I had to do that when we were just dating, I'll always have to do it.

Pressing on the gas pedal, I drive towards my house turning my head multiple times to check up on Blane.

Pulling into my driveway, just like earlier I open his door and walk him inside then straight to my room.

" Do you want to shower, or lay down? " I ask him softly. " Lay down, Lemon Baby. Will you sleep with me? I don't want to be alone. "

I never knew in the last six words he said, was going to break my heart completely. " Of course, I'll always lay with you. "

We both get into bed, and he pulls me close to him. I stroke his brunette hair, as his eyes fall shut.

His heartbeat slowed, and body relaxed into the touch before I knew it he was fast asleep.

Earlier in the car, you could hear his heart beating out of his chest. Literally. I'm not sure what he remembered or happened..but it was definitely a trigger for him.

The slamming on the breaks, and the seatbelts holding us back.

I remember the day we found his car in the field, I had went down there to see it and the car was absolutely totaled.

The window shield was shattered, so was the windows of the car. The little shards of glass everywhere, as blood too.

The thought of him being in that car, shattered my heart and soul. I was so scared he had been dead, or thrown out of the car in the woods or something.

I had a search party go on for a whole week, looking everywhere for miles.

I needed to find him, I couldn't not find him. Without being able to call him and him pick up, sleep beside him, hold him, kiss him, eat with him, let alone hear him breathing..was tearing me apart.

I don't think I could make it if Blane died, physically and mentally. I would die myself.

The only way I'm loosing Blane, is if I'm going with him. You couldn't keep me on the earth, without him.

Because loosing him for a month, made me realize how much I loved him. At night, when everyone was asleep and I was alone..I couldn't breathe.

All I done was sob, and have anger towards everything in the world.

Anger for taking him somewhere I didn't know if he was okay? Somewhere I couldn't comfort and take care of him.

You know what the worst thing was, having the be all alone on the anniversary of Lakens death. Which was the 18th day, Blane was gone.

That day may have been added to the worst things I've experienced in my life.

Holding him closer, I release a strained breath as I choked back my own tears. I won't cry here, not right now..Blane is hurting and now asleep.

I'm taking care of him.
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Blane Orson
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Waking up, felt exhausting even if I had just woken up from sleep. Having episodes or trauma attacks, are draining.

Aliyah is curled up to me, with her hand over my chest showing off the diamond ring.

I ruined this whole day, it was supposed to be an amazing happy day. I mean...I got engaged to the love of my life.

But here we are, in her bed asleep after the fact I about killed us coming home.

Thank God, I told her to put on her seatbelt before we started driving. I would've thrown her through the window.

Her body shuffles in her sleep, before calming. " Your awake..how do you feel? "

I smile slightly at her tiredness, " I'm okay Lemon..I'm sorry about earlier. I didn't mean for any of that to happen, it's just.."

She cuts me off, " Blane you have nothing to be sorry about..it wasn't your fault. You had stuff come back, and it freaked you out. "

" Trauma is a funny thing..it can come back in flashes at anytime. I'm okay, and your okay..that's all that matters. "

I guess she's right, we're both okay. But, what if she's not okay? She may be lying..she might be shooken up from it.

I nodded slightly, kissing her temple..before noticing a little bruise on her shoulder.

" Where'd this come from? " I touch it, as she winces. " The seatbelt just gripped really hard..but I'm okay. " She pushes the shirt up over it.

I done that, I put that bruise on her when I smashed on the breaks.

She puts her hand to my cheek, turning my face to her. " I'm okay, Blane. " I shake my head, slowly getting out of the bed.

Aliyah watches me, before getting out of the bed as well. The engaging ring in view right infront of my face, " I love you..and I'd never lie to you. Your my fiancé, soon to be husband.."

" I know you'd never purposely hurt me. " I pull her close to me, taking in her warmth.

Aliyah Rain is truly one of the most understanding people I've met in my life. I don't know about other people, but to me she is.

I can't wait to marry her.
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