Forever Yours

Chapter Seven

Connor Chase

I avoided Ethan for two days.

I have a mate.

I marked my mate!

I don't know what came over me.The kiss was so intense, and i could feel it all the way down to my freaking toes. It was amazing, it was everything. I got caught up in the moment, and now I've sealed my fate.

To someone I wish I didn't. He's gonna be the fucking Alpha of our pack. What am i supposed to do with that?

I don't want that responsibility, and I don't need it. I'm not capable of caring about it. So what did I do? Seal. My. Fate.

"You're spiraling" My sister, Sarah says. She plops down on the shitty couch beside me, and I glance at her.

Yeah, I am spiraling. My thighs and stomach are cut up, and they burn. They burned so much I had to clean them. It's so simple for me now. I do the same thing over and over. Rinse and repeat.

"Ethan Williams is my mate" I blurted, my leg bouncing and my fingers fidgeting.

"Like, Noah Williams, our alpha's son?" she asks, sitting up straight. I nod, and her eyes flick over my face, then body. "Holy shit Con. That's the best thing that could happen to us. We can get out of this shitshow now!" she smiles, and my stomach tightens.

"I marked him"

"You what?" she asks, flying to her feet. "Oh my goddess.Was he pissed?"

"Uh no. He liked it" A lot.

"Oh my. What did he say about it?"

"I haven't talked to him about it" I finally push to my feet, and I'm busy myself. I start sorting laundry that's on our coffee table.

"What do you mean you haven't talked to him?"

"I haven't seen him in two days"

"Why?"

"Because i don't know what to do Sarah. I don't want a mate. They Are too complicated and I don't know if I can commit to someone like that!" i yell, tossing laundry onto the couch. "I don't know how to commit to anything- a job, a person, I can barely commit to my food order. I don't know how to do this"

At some point I drop to my knees, pulling them to my chest. Everything is screaming at me, and it's so chaotic.

Cutcutcutcut.

The voice plays in my head.

My voice. I push to my feet, and head for the bathroom. But someone knocking at my door stops me.

Cutcutcut.

I take in a deep breath, and Sarah opens the door. "Hi" she swoons, as Ethan fills the doorway.

He has a small grin on his face, but it looks forced. "Hi, I'm Ethan" he says, putting his hand out for her. She shakes it, and a short laugh comes from her.

Cut.Cut.Cut.

"I know. Come in" she steps aside, allowing his big body to fill our small apartment. He doesn't look like he belongs here.

Cutcu-

His eyes fall on me, and everything inside of me swooshes, then silence. My back straightens.

"Hi, Pretty Boy" he says, a real grin pulling at his lips when my brows furrow.

"No. No nicknames "I shake my head. My eyes drop to his neck, to the mark of my teeth in his skin. Heat floods my body, and i turn on my heel and get the fuck out of there. I go to my room, but before I get to shut the door a foot slips between the door jam, and then Ethan is pushing it open.