Sorry... Trigger.
I looked at the person in the mirror staring back at me. I looked at him in disgust and frowned at him.
"Why do I still care? Nobody else does so... why does it matter?"
I can't go on like this anymore. The way I'm feeling, they won't be needing me anymore.
I don't matter to them. The only reason why people keep lying and begging me to come back is so they can just ruin me all over again.
I'm pathetic. I really am.
I should just end this all together so I don't have to feel it anymore.
I grabbed my razor and took a deep breath. I pushed it deep into my skin, not caring about the pain. It hurt but it felt good.
I kept doing it. Over and over.
I smiled.
Because I deserved this.
The feeling in my chest hurts. It will never let me rest. "Just go away!" I screamed at myself in the mirror.
My hand covered my mouth as the tears escaped my eyes. I clutched the sink in my hands and let my eyes drift to the floor.
My eyes wandered to the trail of blood that was at my feet, causing my eyes to close. I started to get very dizzy. My vision became blurry.
Just get me out of here. Please.
I can't let this be my life. I don't want this anymore. I want to end it all. I am better off that way. No matter how much they love hurting me, they would never miss me. I wouldn't miss me either. Every single one of them will just forget about me like none of this ever happened. It doesn't even matter any more.
Is this really happening?
I don't care if they are waiting
I'm happier drifting away.
Don't care if they're crying
Because this water is just like air.
So I can just
Disappear
Well that just happened... Any way!
Don't forget!
I love you.
Xoxo, Sydney
