Emotions. I guess I never really understood them. Never thought I'd feel them. But I certainly never thought that I could feel so many at the same time.
Happy
It's when you take your first steps as an infant, and your parents come and tackle you in hugs and kisses, saying how proud you make them feel. It's when you learn how to tie your shoelaces for the first time. You feel like you can do possibly anything you desire. When you make a new friend, or you get the lead in the school play. When nothing in the world is full of sadness; only happiness that surrounds everyone.
Love
That time when your mom tucks you in bed and kisses you. She tells you a stories about princes and dragons, or taking animals that can fly. She closes the door until you fall into a peaceful sleep. When the love of your life puts their lips against your own, making you melt into their touch. You feel captivated by the sensational feeling of a pair of lips to match perfectly on yours. They take your hand and whisper a soft, 'I love you' in your ear as you hug them close.
Embarrassed
When your parents chaperone for the school dance and claims they are "Amazing" at dancing. They bust out their moves and you want to hide in a corner and go home. When you trip in public or wear something outrageous and absolutely ridiculous, without looking in the mirror that day. When someone makes you blush because of a compliment or a goofy smile that the give you.
Confused
It's hard to not understand something. To not be able to know if you are bothering someone or if you should leave. When you absolutely cannot comprehend what to do next. When your in class and your teacher asks you a question you obviously don't know. Why didn't they let me sit next to them at lunch? Why can't I go to the party if everyone else is?
Those simple but difficult questions lingering in the back of our minds.
Gullible
When you meet someone who you think actually cared about you. You were in your own little world thinking that everything is going to be perfect. But before you know it, you were used. Nobody wanted you for your spontaneous personality or your beautiful self. They took advantage of you by tricking you that everyone loved you when in reality, no one knew you existed. And you believed it because you are easily tricked and isn't aware of what is coming to hurt you. People can walk all over you. And you wouldn't expect it.
Shy
When your crush notices you for the first time. They smile at you, making your heart beat a little bit faster than usual. When you walk into a new group of people and know you don't stand a chance with being friends with them. You sit in the corner knowing that if you would make just one sound, that they would not be wanting you around. When you get your flaws pointed out. One by one.
Sad
People experience sadness every day kg their lives and can't help the fact that they are upset for different reasons. When your pet dies. When your pushed up against the lockers getting pushed, shoved, or even punched. When your mom yells at you and tells you that you disappointed her. When a best friend moves away. When you are sad for no reason.
Just sad.
Envious
When your crush flirts with other people when you have been there the whole time, waiting for them. When someone gets special attention for being better than you. When someone has what you don't have such as looks, confidence, amazing personality, or money. We strive to seek for attention or sympathy from someone. Anyone.
Depressed
The numb feeling of being raw of motivation. Lacking confidence that others have. Seeking for light through a blinded window. Or maybe we are just bind. Blind of the world around us and all the flowers and sunsets and playing in rain puddles. Blind from our surroundings and the people who keep progressing on with their lives. They don't cry for no reason. They don't want to die. But the ones who are depressed seem that the only option is to do the opposite and end everything that they are. It is like a hill. They keep tumbling down and can't get back up without loosing all control.
Emotions
There are emotions in every person in this world. They don't realize what they are doing or saying until they realize how they feel on the inside. Not in the outside. Emotions can take over our lives and control the way we do things. We as people seem to be controlled by happiness, love, embarrassment, confusion, gullibility, shyness, sadness, envy, and depression.
Meaningless
There is never anything meaningless because when you say that something has no meaning, it probably has so much meaning. Like people and the way they see themselves. Some are conceded and define themselves as meaningful while others seek for a meaning or perhaps someone who can mend their pain. We have to think harder on how we look on people's feelings because you don't really know how someone might really feel on the inside.
Today I just realized how worthless I am to people.
I love you so much<3
