I trusted myself.
To keep myself happy.
To make me feel like I mean something to someone.
Like I actually have a purpose.
But I don't.
I don't because nobody ever told me I did.
Nobody did.
I was never told that I changed someone's life.
Or that I'm beautiful.
I kept bringing myself down for someone to notice me.
All I ever wanted was to be free.
To not have to put up a front just for people to think I'm cute.
Or to fake a laugh and smile when something funny happens.
Or to say the same old, 'I'm fine' on a daily basis.
It's not who I am.
It's not who I want to be.
I am tired of getting hurt.
I want someone to love me.
I want someone to care because I care so much.
I need to be happy like all of the other people in my life.
They are oblivious to my feelings.
No one knows the real me.
My so called 'Best friends' could care less if I were gone.
I'm at the point where the only thing I want is mercy.
To have someone to tell me that it is going to be okay.
But it is not.
No one cares.
So why should I?
This is my mind right now...
Love you guys bye<3
