⚠️Mentions of ED⚠️
Taylor's Flashback:
"Are you really going to have another serving?" Joe asks looking at my stomach.
"Uhm, no, I'm full actually," I lie. I was gaining to much weight, I knew that, Joe knew that, all my fans knew that.
We've been dating for about 5 years but we really fell out of a little less than a year ago. But I couldn't break up with him. I love him but I don't love him.
"I'm going to my studio," I tell him, lyrics coming to my head.
"Okay." He rolls his eyes
When I get to my studio I sit at my piano and start singing.
"You say, "I don't understand, " and I say, "I know you don't"
We thought a cure would come through in time, now I fear it won't
Remember lookin' at this room, we loved it 'cause of the light
Now, I just sit in the dark and wonder if it's time
Do I throw out everything we built or keep it?
I'm getting tired even for a phoenix
Always risin' from the ashes
Mendin' all her gashes
You might just have dealt the final blow"
I sing, lyrics flowing out of me.
"Stop, you're losin' me
Stop, you're losin' me
Stop, you're losin' me
I can't find a pulse
My heart won't start anymore
For you
'Cause you're losin' me"
The chorus was even easier to write somehow.
"Every mornin', I glared at you with storms in my eyes
How can you say that you love someone you can't tell is dyin'?
I sent you signals and bit my nails down to the quick
My face was gray, but you wouldn't admit that we were sick
And the air is thick with loss and indecision
I know my pain is such an imposition
Now, you're runnin' down the hallway
And you know what they all say
You don't know what you got until it's gone"
*Flashback ends*
I wake up panting.
"Are you okay baby?" Travis asks me when he sees me panting.
A/N
I'm not trying to make Joe a bad guy it was my only idea NGL. Also I was going to post this yesterday but I was at Disney all day sooo.
