Should I choose?

Chapter Nine

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Elly's POV:

I was walking in silence along the hallway on my way to my locker with Silas besides me. I did the book review with Dashiell who seem to know the book by heart. The way he talked about the characters it's as though he can feel them. I just realized that we have different views about different characters and that Dashiell's love for comic books was intrigued by the book. I won't say Dashiell was friendly though he wasn't rude or anything he just felt distance and disturbed. He was the first person to leave the room when detention was over not even offering a bye or something.

"Are you feeling hot, your face is red and you are just staring at your locker ever since we got here." Silas spoke finally driving me back to reality.

"Oh" was all I'd manage. I locked my locker and we walked to my car ready for the long awkward drive.

"You have been avoiding me lately." Silas said his palms balled into fists and his eyes fixed on the front mirror.

"No am not" I denied quietly as a panic started creeping into my nerves. The tension in the air is palpable as Silas who was sitting in the passenger seat, his fingers nervously drumming on the armrest, eyes me with a frown clearly not buying it. Across from him, I shift uncomfortably behind the wheel, stealing glances at him.

“Sorry, uh, I’ve been meaning to talk to you. About, you know, why I’ve been... MIA.” I started feeling stupid for denying it.

“Yeah,as I said I noticed. Figured maybe you were just busy with other stuff.” he said raising an eyebrow.

“It’s not that. It’s just... I didn’t know how to handle things after... well, after finding out.” I hesitated glancing away immediately.

“You mean after finding out I’m gay?” he said with a wry smile.

“Yeah. I guess I just wasn’t sure what to say or do. It felt... awkward.” I answered rubbing the back of my neck.

“I get it. But I miss hanging out with you. It’s been weird not having you around to at least say anything, I know we just did it once but I would really appreciate it if we keep doing it.” Silas said looking out of the window.

“ Yeah I enjoyed the other day. It’s just... I didn’t want to mess things up. I mean, I don't know, we aren't even friends so I guess I kinder got confused.” I answered with a chuckle.

“Oh? And here I was thinking you were just avoiding me because of my terrible taste in music.” he turned facing me with a hint of a smirk.

“Well, that too. But seriously, you’re one of the coolest people I know. I guess I was just scared of saying something stupid.” I said chuckling feeling slightly relaxed.

“You’re not going to say anything stupid. Trust me, you’re doing fine. Besides, if you really want to impress me, you could start by showing a little more confidence.” he offered with a smile leaning forward slightly and my heart started pumping as crazy again.

“Confidence, huh? Maybe you should give me a few lessons then.” I smiled catching Silas's eyes. I didn't know why we were talking about confidence but like hell I care.

“Deal. But you should know, I’m a pretty demanding teacher.” He said grinning.

“I’m up for the challenge. As long as it means we can hang out again.” I said with a smile and a raised eyebrow.

“I’d like that. A lot.” he said finally relaxing in his seat with a genuine smile spreading across his face.

In the quiet of the car, the tension began to ease as we started to reconnect, our earlier awkwardness giving way to the familiar ease of our- friendship maybe. I reached home feeling satisfied, I called Charles and discussed with him what  Dashiell and I did today so that he doesn't feel left out.